any way the wind blows...
I feel incredibly un-inspired. You always imagine the art kids as full of outlandish ideas that become a reality on paper (and such), but here at RIT - this is not the case. I am not inspired at all. For the last couple of projects I've had to bang my head against something sharp and pointy for awhile before I can think of something remotely original and likeable (for me). There are a million easy answers, and when I'm lazy I take them (mostly in 2D), but for the most part I really want to feel like I'm improving... and that means not slacking off or taking the easy route out.
The sad thing is, besides my drawings and graphic design - I'm not really proud proud of anything I've done here compared to the proud feeling I got when I was done work in highschool. I look back and feel like I've gotten worse rather than better. At the same time, I had a lot more time to work on projects in highschool AND I had other classes so that I didn't have to strain my creative juices for every class.
I needed a change. I moved my desk around in our room and already it feels so much better. I have the window to my right, Laura in front of me, and the door to the hallway of never dying action to the left. It's weird to think about, but as great as Art House is - it defintaly hinders you getting work done if you have ADD (like myself) cause you're constantly pulled into the hallway, other people's rooms, or people show up in yours. I love that that happens, but for me, it doesn't help. They come to me for ideas and I can come up with a million and one ideas for them, but none for myself. How fucking weird is that?
I'm doing great - just a little stressed that end of the quarter is coming up already. We have to sign up for housing next year and spring quarter classes by the end of this week. XP
Tim comes up in 2 days! Sweeeeeeeeet. I guess we'll figure out what's up then... and how this is gonna work out. I kind of enjoy living day to day rather than in the future/past. You feel less lonely, when you don't love somebody, that way. If you do feel lonely, it's only for a little while and then you move on quickly. 4 people in the room this weekend! It's like old times again...
The Mafia play is this weekend as well. I don't know if Tim would want to come to that... perhaps he'll just hang with Megan. Go get completely stoned. -.-* I don't know if I want to be stoned or not, ever. If I visit Tim at UVM it will probably happen. I just don't want him to get here and be completely bored out of his mind cause we're not drinking or smoking this weekend. O.o*
The sad thing is, besides my drawings and graphic design - I'm not really proud proud of anything I've done here compared to the proud feeling I got when I was done work in highschool. I look back and feel like I've gotten worse rather than better. At the same time, I had a lot more time to work on projects in highschool AND I had other classes so that I didn't have to strain my creative juices for every class.
I needed a change. I moved my desk around in our room and already it feels so much better. I have the window to my right, Laura in front of me, and the door to the hallway of never dying action to the left. It's weird to think about, but as great as Art House is - it defintaly hinders you getting work done if you have ADD (like myself) cause you're constantly pulled into the hallway, other people's rooms, or people show up in yours. I love that that happens, but for me, it doesn't help. They come to me for ideas and I can come up with a million and one ideas for them, but none for myself. How fucking weird is that?
I'm doing great - just a little stressed that end of the quarter is coming up already. We have to sign up for housing next year and spring quarter classes by the end of this week. XP
Tim comes up in 2 days! Sweeeeeeeeet. I guess we'll figure out what's up then... and how this is gonna work out. I kind of enjoy living day to day rather than in the future/past. You feel less lonely, when you don't love somebody, that way. If you do feel lonely, it's only for a little while and then you move on quickly. 4 people in the room this weekend! It's like old times again...
The Mafia play is this weekend as well. I don't know if Tim would want to come to that... perhaps he'll just hang with Megan. Go get completely stoned. -.-* I don't know if I want to be stoned or not, ever. If I visit Tim at UVM it will probably happen. I just don't want him to get here and be completely bored out of his mind cause we're not drinking or smoking this weekend. O.o*