Yuck
I hate this stage in my life. Working towards a goal that never seems like it will happen. What's the point? We all have aspirations and dreams but who really reaches the dream in the end. I'm sure my mom didn't dream about being in a dead end job at Ford and still going to school part time at 48. I'm sure my sister didn't dream of having 3 kids at 25 and being a stay at home mom. These are two of the biggest reasons I am going to school yet I have no motivation to be better than they are cause their lives seems so much more fufilling then mine. I am 19 years old and all I want is to have a the life of a 30-something year old. That's sad but its the truth. I don't care about going out and having the time of my life anymore. The time of my life would be having kids and being married and having a real life not some sorry excuse of me living on my "own" in a stupid dorm going to stupid classes and skating on thin ice cause of how little motivation I have. I should just become a fucking pipe fitter or some shit where I can go to school for a year and come out with a job. Oh well. I better go to sleep I have to wake up for another enlightened day of Crap.