You say I must eat so many lemons because I'm so bitter
I'm spoiled. Okay I am. I never deny that. I do get a lot of material things without any effort. However I do not think I am materialistic. I also do not think that I take my things for granted nor do I have no perception of currency. I will be paying for my own college education. I do not have a job because I would like to focus on school while I can so I can make a decent living when I need to. I am set to take Ap english, AP Physics, and AP Statistics my senior year of highschool. Clearly that shows that I do understand what is important in life. I'm not going to apologize for being blessed in my childhood and teen years. You are getting a free ride through college and you're taking classes that are way below your level just so you can ride by. You are constantly trying to bring my own self perception down so you will not trip off of the pedestal that people have you on. Yes, it is true that you are quite intelligent and that you have learned quite a bit about culture, worldly affairs, and even religions. If you think that this makes you a better person than you are misunderstanding all your own lessons. If you were truly in touch with "the greater scheme of things" you'd be able to accept me for who I am and understand that I am do what is best for me. To call me a runt or any other offensive name you choose is ridiculous as I have not done anything wrong. No one asked you to work three jobs. You are in no way supporting your self although you would like people to believe that. Your parents pay for your house and your food. They are also paying for your tuition for your entire undergraduate degree. I'm not in any way trying to say I have it harder than you do because I am not like you. I accept that our situations are different. What I am trying to convey is that I am a person that has opened up my life and heart to you. I've given you absolutely everything i can in any way one could imagine. For you to talk to me the way you do shows a complete lack of respect and I would even go as far as to say it implies that I am one of your least favorite people. If that is true than I will have to come to the sad realization that I am in this relationship by myself. I believe full heartidly that that is not true and that you do love me. For whatever reason you have lost your desire to show me any level of respect and I'm willing to work on it if you are. Judging by the way you handle conflict if you even read this it may have enraged you. That wasn't my intent. The fact is if I try to tell you this in a more direct, instant, manner you shut me out or leave completely. I'm sorry that I had no other way of telling you this. There is more i could say but I don't want to burden you with an essay or become redundant. I love you so much.