Pessimism anyone?
Pessimism anyone?....
It was an interesting talk with my lecturer, but nothing concrete beyond a few names I should chase up for reading material (mainly extension of the lectures' readings). He was supportive of me wanting to do Honours and told me to contact one of my old lecturers and say I've spoken to him. Left me feeling... um... generally enthusiastic, but not specifically encouraged if that makes sense.
I then went to speak to the person about the internship possibility to discover that to do it I have to have space left in my degree (like when I went overseas). As I have now (FINALLY) completed the requirements for my degree I don't have 'space' to do it. *cue rant* I don't understand how they can say 'you can't do it'. I'm freaking offering them money to do it. I WANT to do it. I am excited about their stupid freaking course, and they are essentially shutting me out of it, and saying fuck off. I would understand if they said something like 'we can accept your application, but people who are still doing their degrees have priority'. I'm going back to talk to her again. SHE was the one going on about how beneficial it is for Honours and future work. BAH. STUPID STUPID FUCKING UNIVERSITY. Thank god I'm almost done with their shitty bureaucracy.
This assignment on Rwanda is killing me. Apart from just general apathy about it considering how close I am to finished with my degree, the reading I've been doing has been giving me horrible dreams. Its all a bit overwhelming when I think that I PRESUME that I can do something to change the world. My idealism is fighting my cynicism at the moment. Its a tense battle.
I need something to restore my belief. In the world (no miracles, just something small). And in myself.
I am desperately sorry I haven't answered certain people lately. And even more sorry my dearest Ellie I haven't emailed you about Watermarks - I'm a horrible horrible person! Forgive me.
Love
It was an interesting talk with my lecturer, but nothing concrete beyond a few names I should chase up for reading material (mainly extension of the lectures' readings). He was supportive of me wanting to do Honours and told me to contact one of my old lecturers and say I've spoken to him. Left me feeling... um... generally enthusiastic, but not specifically encouraged if that makes sense.
I then went to speak to the person about the internship possibility to discover that to do it I have to have space left in my degree (like when I went overseas). As I have now (FINALLY) completed the requirements for my degree I don't have 'space' to do it. *cue rant* I don't understand how they can say 'you can't do it'. I'm freaking offering them money to do it. I WANT to do it. I am excited about their stupid freaking course, and they are essentially shutting me out of it, and saying fuck off. I would understand if they said something like 'we can accept your application, but people who are still doing their degrees have priority'. I'm going back to talk to her again. SHE was the one going on about how beneficial it is for Honours and future work. BAH. STUPID STUPID FUCKING UNIVERSITY. Thank god I'm almost done with their shitty bureaucracy.
This assignment on Rwanda is killing me. Apart from just general apathy about it considering how close I am to finished with my degree, the reading I've been doing has been giving me horrible dreams. Its all a bit overwhelming when I think that I PRESUME that I can do something to change the world. My idealism is fighting my cynicism at the moment. Its a tense battle.
I need something to restore my belief. In the world (no miracles, just something small). And in myself.
I am desperately sorry I haven't answered certain people lately. And even more sorry my dearest Ellie I haven't emailed you about Watermarks - I'm a horrible horrible person! Forgive me.
Love