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You dont seem 2 notice You dont seem 2 care You promise me something Then u arent even there You tell people my secrets Tell me ur lies Who wants a friend That makes u want 2 cry?--Do you ever just wish you could hear the sirens of the ambulance--Wake up in the emergency room and hear the doctors say "She isn't going to make it"--Just so you could find out who REALLY cares about you?!-- *~*~Sometimes You Have To Smile, Pretend Everthings Okay,Hold Back The Tears, And Just Walk Away~*~* IT IS HARD FOR ME TO GROW UP IN A BUNCH OF LIES.ESPECIALLY WITH JACOB,IT IS HARD TO GROW UP WITH HIM NOW BECAUSE I DON'T SEE US BEING TOGETHER EVER AGAIN WHICH BREAKS MY HEART.* everytime i think of u it gets harder and harder to breath* knowing that ur thinking of her an not thinking of me* i cant stop hoping cant stop wishing that someday u'll know* all the times i thought of u and how hard it was to let go* all the tears ive cried all the laughter gone* if u gave me a chance all i'd need is one* to show u how much i love u to show u how much i care* and to show i keep my promises yes i will always be there* read every letter read each word* and tell me why ur still with her*iM OnLy mE aNd tHaTz aLL i CaN bE No MoRe ..No LeSs . .DoNt 2Nd GUeSS i LaUgH-i LuV- i LiVe- i CrY aNd SuMtiMez iVe WiShEd DaT i WoULd DiE SuM DaYz iM FuNny OTHERS im NoT SuMeTiMeZ iM iN OVaDriVe & i CaNt StOp u mAy NoT LiKe Me bUt thaTs oK tHiS iS mE aNd HoW i'LL -aLwAyz- sTaY*~its just another tear running down my face*~its just another broken place*~its just another fear to face*~its just another cut to heal*~its just another empty space to fill*~its just you to get over*~I got home and was mad all the rumors and lies from school I just couldn't take anymore I go straight to my room And turn on the radio real high so no one can hear my cries! I grab it And put it against my wrist! I felt the blade and the coldness of it I press harder and feel the satisfaction of the pain that aches up my arm! I see the warm red blood that oozing out of my cuts It is my only way of escape I never cut to deep I never cut deep enough for me to die I cut deep enough for me to see the scars and tears that got left behind I feel the satisfaction and pleasure that I'm still alive I don't know why I started it just made everything seem like it was alright I knew it was wrong but I blocked that out of my head All it does is paint a picture that you think everything is alright when it isn't.you should always live life to the fullest because you never know when its your turn to go. STOP with all this crap!! get it over with!! i cant stand my life, my misery, the hate towards me, the people who pretend to care...the people who put the knives in my back!! STOP with all this crap..just kill me already!!I love walking in the rain....cause then no one knows im crying.... .:* *:. Be SeXi *:. .:* .:* *:. bE trUe *:. .:* .:* *:. Be WiLd *:. .:* .:* *:. bE yOu *:. .:* these following things will have a X beside then if i have finished them Take chances tell the truth date sum1 tottally wrong for u X say no spend all ur cash sleep an entire day fall in love befriend an enemy say i love u sing out loud laugh at a stupid joke cry get revenge apoligize tell someone just how much they really mean to u tell a retard wut u really feel about them let sum1 no wut their missing laugh till ur stomach hurts take risks most importantly live life~i try to accept what I have done*all the sins*all the memories*you ask me if i'm ok*i say i am*you walk away thinking it is*but you don't know that is isn't*i pray at night*but it doesn't help*i have stopped believing*i can't sleep*i can't walk*i can't tlak*i can't eat*i don't know what to do*i am so scared*i try to be honest*but my honesty gets changed into lies*i walk alone*wondering if you even care*you see me in the halls*all happy*you see me everywhere*only because i have no home*i am so scared*i dont know what to do...

: http://www.flashplayer.com/animation/imissyoudaddy_movie.php This will make you cry... A true story of a 6 year old girl who lost her dad in 9/11 this is soo freakin sad