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have u ever felt ur just living this big meaningful existance?
all the problumes u face r pointless in ths sceam of things.... because theres always some one worse off then u! always! but yet all of us think the end of the world is commign with stupid little things like change, or guy problumes, or somethign breaking u reay loved ect.
so yesterday i got home and my mom had cleaned and rearanged my whole room.. and in stead of thanking her for spending hours and hours making it look nice ... i just freaked out and yelled ...it was too much too fast and she touched my stuff and went through evry thing my personal things... if i cant handle a simple gesture that is supposed to be nice ... how can i handle life and all the crap that comes with it?
my mom was mad b/c i guess evry laborday since i was born shes cleaned my room and made it look nice(its tredition) but im to selfish to realize that.. and realize how much work she put into it and how much she cares .... but i act like a compleat ass hole and then go to kates for the night to escape her...
i belive i wont be able to handel life ... i mean it so simple right now ...what will happen when it gets hard?
i have descoverd more flaws i have but these r in my personality ... i just relized all the ppl that kept me going since freshman year are all gone and those friends i used to be close to have slowly drifted away... i am drifting far far away ... from evry one and i can seemto come back its kinda like and ocean current pulling me out to see ... weird.
all the problumes u face r pointless in ths sceam of things.... because theres always some one worse off then u! always! but yet all of us think the end of the world is commign with stupid little things like change, or guy problumes, or somethign breaking u reay loved ect.
so yesterday i got home and my mom had cleaned and rearanged my whole room.. and in stead of thanking her for spending hours and hours making it look nice ... i just freaked out and yelled ...it was too much too fast and she touched my stuff and went through evry thing my personal things... if i cant handle a simple gesture that is supposed to be nice ... how can i handle life and all the crap that comes with it?
my mom was mad b/c i guess evry laborday since i was born shes cleaned my room and made it look nice(its tredition) but im to selfish to realize that.. and realize how much work she put into it and how much she cares .... but i act like a compleat ass hole and then go to kates for the night to escape her...
i belive i wont be able to handel life ... i mean it so simple right now ...what will happen when it gets hard?
i have descoverd more flaws i have but these r in my personality ... i just relized all the ppl that kept me going since freshman year are all gone and those friends i used to be close to have slowly drifted away... i am drifting far far away ... from evry one and i can seemto come back its kinda like and ocean current pulling me out to see ... weird.