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i finished.
no more dealing with TAFE fuckwits, no more deadlines.
so now i have to decide what to do next year...perhaps i will start uni courses by correspondence, perhaps i will skip yr 11 completely and start doing the hsc course. im finding it extremely difficult to care at the moment.
i finished on wed afternoon, and thursday and friday were the best days ive had in ages. on thursday i slept in till 10, than i went to the 'sculptures by the sea' walk with Barbara and my older sister. when we got there it was freezing! gale force winds, rain etc. i loved walking along on the cliffs almost being blown off my feet looking out at the ocean. on the way back it hailed and everyone was running and we all ended up sheltering under this tiny space, brushing hail stones out of our hair. on the way back in the car mum was pestering about getting lunch...and i ended up getting this felafel and tabouleh wrap thing. i didnt even mind it that much when she made me have some banana bread. after that i had a long bath with my grapefruit and pachouli bubble bath and 'Masons Retreat', whih was a bit of a copy of the great gatsby, i thought.
of course the inevitable low kicked in on saturday. i worked in the morning, came home. tried to practise guitar and ended up screaming in frustration and throwing it across the room. i than cried for a few hours about how stupid, fat useless ugly and boring i am before going to help with joeys birthday party. similar scenario today, worked in the morning again. got hit on by a few dirty old men and couldnt do anything about it. tipped boiling water over my hand and wrist when i got home. went to hospital, got it bandaged etc. etc.
everyone else thinks it was an unfortunate accident. more work tomorow. my life seems pretty fucking pointless at this point in time.
its kind of funny .....i have a line from a lame hilary duff song running through my head. im reliving that sucky movie where her brother died and a few months later she was singing inspirational songs about it. 'in a moment...everything can change'. that right hils?
no more dealing with TAFE fuckwits, no more deadlines.
so now i have to decide what to do next year...perhaps i will start uni courses by correspondence, perhaps i will skip yr 11 completely and start doing the hsc course. im finding it extremely difficult to care at the moment.
i finished on wed afternoon, and thursday and friday were the best days ive had in ages. on thursday i slept in till 10, than i went to the 'sculptures by the sea' walk with Barbara and my older sister. when we got there it was freezing! gale force winds, rain etc. i loved walking along on the cliffs almost being blown off my feet looking out at the ocean. on the way back it hailed and everyone was running and we all ended up sheltering under this tiny space, brushing hail stones out of our hair. on the way back in the car mum was pestering about getting lunch...and i ended up getting this felafel and tabouleh wrap thing. i didnt even mind it that much when she made me have some banana bread. after that i had a long bath with my grapefruit and pachouli bubble bath and 'Masons Retreat', whih was a bit of a copy of the great gatsby, i thought.
of course the inevitable low kicked in on saturday. i worked in the morning, came home. tried to practise guitar and ended up screaming in frustration and throwing it across the room. i than cried for a few hours about how stupid, fat useless ugly and boring i am before going to help with joeys birthday party. similar scenario today, worked in the morning again. got hit on by a few dirty old men and couldnt do anything about it. tipped boiling water over my hand and wrist when i got home. went to hospital, got it bandaged etc. etc.
everyone else thinks it was an unfortunate accident. more work tomorow. my life seems pretty fucking pointless at this point in time.
its kind of funny .....i have a line from a lame hilary duff song running through my head. im reliving that sucky movie where her brother died and a few months later she was singing inspirational songs about it. 'in a moment...everything can change'. that right hils?