Ann's Limit Break: Kaiten Flood
Everyone has limits, you know? It doesn't mean that a person especially knows what those limits are or even that they exist. A limit just suddenly happens, like hitting a brick wall on a foggy night. You have the hazy realization of something being before you, but you don't know what it is until you've tumbled out of the wreckage of your car to inspect the damage.
If you've ever been in a car accident, you know what I mean. Or do you? Wait... what was I talking about again?
Oh, right. Limits. I hit one today like hitting a brick wall (hence the metaphor. Yay, back on track!) It's not fun. I haven't had that kind of episode since my first night in Tokyo on the JET Program over a year ago.
I'm not sure what happened. I think I've just been out and about too much. Don't get me wrong, I'm having a lot of fun with Rachel, but I do have limits to the amount of time I spend "out and about." Being around crowds of people, especially strangers, is incredibly draining for me. I'm not sure why. I think it may be because I'm very observant and preoccupied with how other people view me. That kind of thing comes with being a social outcast, which is why I limit myself to only so much time outside my apartment. I've been much better about being social over the past few months and it has indeed made me happier on the whole, but I still spend a good chunk of time by myself. And if I don't get that "me time," (not that kind of time, guys) I get irritable and depressed. This happens regardless of who I'm around, Katie and my sister included.
Of course, everyone on the planet needs their "me time." I just think I need more of it than most people. This is especially true in Japan where I get loads of attention just by stepping outside. Most of that attention is of a good kind, but I'm not one to like much of any kind of attention. I'm like a cactus. The more attention you give me, the worse off I am, even if you are just trying to do a good thing for me.
Also, I may hurt you if you try to hug me.
Anyway, I'm feeling better now that I realized that there are probably no more trips into the city! Yay! Tomorrow is just school and hanging out with the Japanese peeps. Thursday will be even better. I'm really looking forward to Thursday. Yay Kuroiwa!
Wish Rachel and I luck at school tomorrow! It's probably going to be a day to remember. Well, I can only hope that it will be a day to remember.
If you've ever been in a car accident, you know what I mean. Or do you? Wait... what was I talking about again?
Oh, right. Limits. I hit one today like hitting a brick wall (hence the metaphor. Yay, back on track!) It's not fun. I haven't had that kind of episode since my first night in Tokyo on the JET Program over a year ago.
I'm not sure what happened. I think I've just been out and about too much. Don't get me wrong, I'm having a lot of fun with Rachel, but I do have limits to the amount of time I spend "out and about." Being around crowds of people, especially strangers, is incredibly draining for me. I'm not sure why. I think it may be because I'm very observant and preoccupied with how other people view me. That kind of thing comes with being a social outcast, which is why I limit myself to only so much time outside my apartment. I've been much better about being social over the past few months and it has indeed made me happier on the whole, but I still spend a good chunk of time by myself. And if I don't get that "me time," (not that kind of time, guys) I get irritable and depressed. This happens regardless of who I'm around, Katie and my sister included.
Of course, everyone on the planet needs their "me time." I just think I need more of it than most people. This is especially true in Japan where I get loads of attention just by stepping outside. Most of that attention is of a good kind, but I'm not one to like much of any kind of attention. I'm like a cactus. The more attention you give me, the worse off I am, even if you are just trying to do a good thing for me.
Also, I may hurt you if you try to hug me.
Anyway, I'm feeling better now that I realized that there are probably no more trips into the city! Yay! Tomorrow is just school and hanging out with the Japanese peeps. Thursday will be even better. I'm really looking forward to Thursday. Yay Kuroiwa!
Wish Rachel and I luck at school tomorrow! It's probably going to be a day to remember. Well, I can only hope that it will be a day to remember.