Memory awake

[water_fowl182]

A little hiatus speculation installment, by way of a queerly bleak ficlet. Based on the presumption, Sam might very well turn out utterly unthrilled and unplacated by the forced resoulment.

NB: In no way conceived as implicit Sam-bashing, though does interpret his subsequent reaction to resoulment and Dean's part in it rather unapologetically. My

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[muffaletta]

What a bleak, powerful fic. I could see Dean just giving up, after everything that's happened this last year (not to mention all those previous years, including all those memories of Hell.) The part about burning the photos was especially poignant and Bobby trying to save them for Dean. Heartbreaking stuff.

Would your muse ever consider a sequel? I'd love to see Bobby and Cas trying to bring Dean back because they care so much about him (and maybe even Dean's reaction if Sam ever decided to come back. Would Dean forgive the hurt or did Sam leave Dean one times too many?)

[water_fowl182]

Thank you ever so much for the kindest feedback! I'm utterly humbled and far more than beyond thrilled.

I actually did have a bit of different ending in mind, with Sam eventually showing up back at Bobby's, having vented out misguided indignation and seeking reconciliation. But it was a tad too late since Dean had already sunck so deep into devastation, a simple 'I'm sorry' wouldn't do.
I think may actually try and go with it, if the hiatus, perchance, gets too long to endure.

[muffaletta]

That would be aweome! Would bribing your muse with virtual cookies help? I have a fresh baked batch right over here, lol.

[water_fowl182]

*g*
Usually, my muse is operating on finely honed social and creative awareness and hardly ever needs extra incentive.
But there's no such thing as shying away from a delicious helping of virtual cookies *g*

[borgmama1of5]

Nonononono

Running over to hug the poor guy!

This is just devastating, pleasepleaseplease write part 2 where Sam comes around!

[water_fowl182]

Thank you for taking the time to read and review!

I'll think about a sequel (maybe just by way of a less angsty sneak-peak into how it all turns out for the better, in the end). For I actually do feel kinda bad for driving Dean so close to the edge, this time.

[serendip50]

Stunning and beautifully written piece.

It brakes my heart that Sam can so callously leave his brother, again! Especially as Dean only ever seeks to save his brother from becoming a 'inhuman' effectively, a monster.

Burning the family photos was a particularly moving and poignant moment...and Bobby's efforts to save them commendable but futile.

Effectively communicates Dean's, and indeed Sam's, tragic circumstances.

Love to read more of this...

[water_fowl182]

Thank you heartily for taking the time to read and review! I do appreciate the kindest feedback

[biketest]

"At least for now, pretending to be dead alive, Dean can scramble for the comforting shrouds of delusion. The refuge recollections of fireworks, and peanut-butter sandwiches, of a cheerful Sammy and a caring Mom. A precious make believe of having been loved by someone. Once upon a time."

Ahhh holy shit. That was beautiful.
I'm pretty sure that the show will make Sam's soul returning more cheerful, but I could definitely see this happening.
I can't even imagine how much it must suck for Dean to want an out so badly but know that ending life on earth would only deliver him back downstairs.

[water_fowl182]

Thank you! I do appreciate the most insightful feedback.

Yeah, I do hope too, the issue of Sam's soul return is tackled in a less angsty vien onscreen. The boys could use a moment of unabashed cheer.

To my mind, Dean's still not over his devastating experiences in Hell and might believe himself undeserving of salvation. But given his recollections of the latest trip upstairs and how it ended, he might as well believe whatever 'heavenly' memories are there in store for him, could just be existent in his mind's eye, and nowhere else. Rendering Dean's angst into a 'catch-22', of sorts. Since offing oneself would guarantee Hell, that strips away any good memory there is; and awaiting a natural end may not guarantee Heaven will comprise of those treasured memories either.

[marlowe78]

Aw, hellfire and damnation :( This is so sad. I am quite alright with this, since it can't be a fine and healthy experience to get your soul back into you, suddenly feeling all the crap you didn't before.
It hurt to read this, especially Dean burning the pictures *sniff*. But I hold hope that Sam wil return, once he burned his rage away. He deserves to do that, and it's probably better to not be around anyone you love, until you really remember why you love them.

So, Sam'll be back. That his usual reaction to anything involving his family, running away, always hurts his brother... is not actually his fault.

So, I see this as a very bleak ficlet and a relative short amount of time. And dude, awesome!

[water_fowl182]

Thank you for taking the time to read and review! I do immensely appreciate the insightful feedback.

Actually, I do harbor certain reservations with regard to Sam's MO tending not to factor in the hurt he might cause his brother. But for both of the boys' sake, in my mind's eye, Sam is to come back, eventually, in this little 'verse spin-off. For they're only truly strong and happy, when together.

[marlowe78]

Hi
Well, saying that Sam isn't at fault when Dean gets hurt by his reactions doesn't mean he shouldn't THINK before acting, since he isn't stupid and he kinda has to know how it affects his brother.

So I didn't want to give him a carte blanche for acting like he pleases. I just think in this situation, he might have a reason to snap like he did.

Which of course still means he'll come back and ... dunno. Do something right?

I'm glad you're considering to continue this somehow. I promise, I'll read it \o/

[water_fowl182]

So I didn't want to give him a carte blanche for acting like he pleases. I just think in this situation, he might have a reason to snap like he did.

Well, we definitely see eye to eye on this one *g*

I promise, I'll read it \o/

Thanks! In advance. Now there's a small matter of actually going through with writing it.