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my brain has totally working overtime these past few weeks... darn school work. projects, tests, quizzes, a shit load of homework... oy. yeah i know i shouldn't procrastinate but its a friggen disorder and i can't help it. i'm such a failure. my grades are slipping and i'm going to have a nervous breakdown soon. idk... bio has been going fine.. but i just wished that i do better in that class... i've been failing all my quizzes and tests... gr. western civ is going pretty steadily too... thats the only class i'm doing wellest.. haha... in. but that class doesn't count cuz its not honors. :( ... ceramics is boring as hell... i don't think the teacher likes me... and i'm not sure if she likes me either... i don't give a crap. we're doing the coil pots in that class... and she always mentions japanese and chinese in every other sentence... its very aggravating... although i have no clue why it should be... maybe i'm just weird like that... oh the fuck well. geometry is a killer... she assigns us sooo much work. can't she just give us a break??!! eh... oh well...
i feel useless... i don't know why... but i just do. my friends are going through hard times... and i can't do anything about it... i'd love to though. i want them to be happy and be like their old selves again. i can't do anything when they are feeling down. i don't know how to comfort them... i suck at life so much. i just want it to be like before. but it seems like all my close friends are drifting away... leaving just me here... they go their seperate ways in small clusters and they are perfectly happy. but me... i don't know where to go.. i have no one to go with. i feel alone... but maybe thats me. it sucks having classes by myself. well not by myself... not having classes with my friends. they get to spend more time with each other, but me? i just sit through class not saying a word, no one to talk to, no one to gossip with, theres just no one. i know i should makes some new friends... but they have their own clusters in the class... idk... maybe its just life. i hope next year gets better...
i feel useless... i don't know why... but i just do. my friends are going through hard times... and i can't do anything about it... i'd love to though. i want them to be happy and be like their old selves again. i can't do anything when they are feeling down. i don't know how to comfort them... i suck at life so much. i just want it to be like before. but it seems like all my close friends are drifting away... leaving just me here... they go their seperate ways in small clusters and they are perfectly happy. but me... i don't know where to go.. i have no one to go with. i feel alone... but maybe thats me. it sucks having classes by myself. well not by myself... not having classes with my friends. they get to spend more time with each other, but me? i just sit through class not saying a word, no one to talk to, no one to gossip with, theres just no one. i know i should makes some new friends... but they have their own clusters in the class... idk... maybe its just life. i hope next year gets better...