i could not ask for more
soooooo things have been completely amazing. 2 weeks ago, i spent 3 days with Miranda. it was...wow. soooo much fun. i came home with souvenirs on my neck and my bottom lip was a little bruised and chapped. but it was well, well worth it. she's amazing, and for some reason, she thinks the same thing about me. and we made it official, too. as of the 1st of november. every day with her in it is just...amazing. everything is still in that pretty indescribable stage for both of us...so yeah...
my mom is having problems. she had an abnormal test, so they did a biopsy. she finds those results out on the 17th. and has a "conference" with Dr. Cainelli. then the 19th she's having surgery. a D&C, Hysteroscopy, and Endometrial Ablation. then...whatever they find out there...i guess everything will determine if it's cancer or not. Ovarian, we're guessing..if anything.
i had a Hep C scare. had bloodwork and things done, and all those times my liver function came back high....it's fine now, though. dr. dixon said i have an immunity to it. so i'm all good.
i applied at Songbird Lodge today and going to apply at Oak Ridge tomorrow. to be a nurse's aide. they train/certify you. and i should be able to make between 8 and 11 dollars an hour. i really want to work nights, though. because that's what miranda works, and we already have this whole schedule. when she gets home in the mornings, i call her around 8:30, if i don't...she calls me at 9 and wakes me up. we talk till 1 or 2. she goes to sleep, gets up, has dinner, gets ready for work and talks to me, then we talk on her cell on her way to work, so that's another 2-3 hours. from 8 or 9-11. i'm hoping they have nights shifts available.
miranda is coming to visit saturday morning when she gets off work. and she'll be here from saturday to tuesday, bc she has a 4 day off, which comes along every great once in a while. so she's going to spend it here, with me.
i felt really bad for her last night, bc her mom called her to "check on her." which miranda said didn't make sense. and when her mom asked if anything was new, miranda said, "yeah, but you already said you don't want to hear about it." meaning me. she was even going to e-mail her mom a picture of her and i but never did. and her mom started trying to defend herself saying she loved her, and she's just been busy. then she was like, "everyone deserves another human being that makes them happy..." and miranda was like, "human being? yeah, she's a person, but she's a GIRL mom, a woman...and yes, she makes me very fucking happy and she treats me very well." i was like, "Awww." because i was talking to her on her house phone when her mom called her cell, so i heard the whole thing. it was interesting, to say the least.
then when i woke up this morning, i had this e-mail...
Lindsey,
I just wanted to tell you once again how much you mean to me. I don't think that any words will ever be enough to really, truly express this to you, but I am going to try. :)
I hope you know just how beautiful and wonderful you are. You make me so happy and feel so special and beautiful. You could never really know just how you make me feel baby girl, well I won't say that, but you know what I mean, I hope anyway.
I have found that in anything I do there is something that makes me think of you. A person in a hat, my job, a song, a show, a commercial and so many more things. I have never felt this strongly about someone nor had the smallest/oddest things remind me of someone. It is crazy but crazy in a good way. :) I cannot explain what it is about you Lindsey, except the fact that you are so incredibly sweet and wonderful and so much more. No one has ever treated me the way you do, made me feel the way you do, or cared the way you do. No one has ever done or said the, what you may see as small, the things you say or do. You make me feel beautiful and sexy and loved. I have never been able to look at someone and just know...just know that they are someone truly special and then on top of that you are you. Wonderful, beautiful, and special YOU!
I miss you so much... I miss your touch, your smell, your kisses, and your everything.
I hope you have a good day and know that I am always thinking of you and smiling a smile or sighing a sigh of happiness.
Always and Forever
Miranda <33
Pictures!
sitting on my lap at her aunt's house, wearing my OU cap, which she still has. :D
drawings of hers for me:
she titled this "Lindsey and Miranda in Heart Land"
*sigh* yeah, she's great...she even sings a new song to me everyday. and wow, beautiful voice. :)
that's all from me for now....
my mom is having problems. she had an abnormal test, so they did a biopsy. she finds those results out on the 17th. and has a "conference" with Dr. Cainelli. then the 19th she's having surgery. a D&C, Hysteroscopy, and Endometrial Ablation. then...whatever they find out there...i guess everything will determine if it's cancer or not. Ovarian, we're guessing..if anything.
i had a Hep C scare. had bloodwork and things done, and all those times my liver function came back high....it's fine now, though. dr. dixon said i have an immunity to it. so i'm all good.
i applied at Songbird Lodge today and going to apply at Oak Ridge tomorrow. to be a nurse's aide. they train/certify you. and i should be able to make between 8 and 11 dollars an hour. i really want to work nights, though. because that's what miranda works, and we already have this whole schedule. when she gets home in the mornings, i call her around 8:30, if i don't...she calls me at 9 and wakes me up. we talk till 1 or 2. she goes to sleep, gets up, has dinner, gets ready for work and talks to me, then we talk on her cell on her way to work, so that's another 2-3 hours. from 8 or 9-11. i'm hoping they have nights shifts available.
miranda is coming to visit saturday morning when she gets off work. and she'll be here from saturday to tuesday, bc she has a 4 day off, which comes along every great once in a while. so she's going to spend it here, with me.
i felt really bad for her last night, bc her mom called her to "check on her." which miranda said didn't make sense. and when her mom asked if anything was new, miranda said, "yeah, but you already said you don't want to hear about it." meaning me. she was even going to e-mail her mom a picture of her and i but never did. and her mom started trying to defend herself saying she loved her, and she's just been busy. then she was like, "everyone deserves another human being that makes them happy..." and miranda was like, "human being? yeah, she's a person, but she's a GIRL mom, a woman...and yes, she makes me very fucking happy and she treats me very well." i was like, "Awww." because i was talking to her on her house phone when her mom called her cell, so i heard the whole thing. it was interesting, to say the least.
then when i woke up this morning, i had this e-mail...
Lindsey,
I just wanted to tell you once again how much you mean to me. I don't think that any words will ever be enough to really, truly express this to you, but I am going to try. :)
I hope you know just how beautiful and wonderful you are. You make me so happy and feel so special and beautiful. You could never really know just how you make me feel baby girl, well I won't say that, but you know what I mean, I hope anyway.
I have found that in anything I do there is something that makes me think of you. A person in a hat, my job, a song, a show, a commercial and so many more things. I have never felt this strongly about someone nor had the smallest/oddest things remind me of someone. It is crazy but crazy in a good way. :) I cannot explain what it is about you Lindsey, except the fact that you are so incredibly sweet and wonderful and so much more. No one has ever treated me the way you do, made me feel the way you do, or cared the way you do. No one has ever done or said the, what you may see as small, the things you say or do. You make me feel beautiful and sexy and loved. I have never been able to look at someone and just know...just know that they are someone truly special and then on top of that you are you. Wonderful, beautiful, and special YOU!
I miss you so much... I miss your touch, your smell, your kisses, and your everything.
I hope you have a good day and know that I am always thinking of you and smiling a smile or sighing a sigh of happiness.
Always and Forever
Miranda <33
Pictures!
sitting on my lap at her aunt's house, wearing my OU cap, which she still has. :D
drawings of hers for me:
she titled this "Lindsey and Miranda in Heart Land"
*sigh* yeah, she's great...she even sings a new song to me everyday. and wow, beautiful voice. :)
that's all from me for now....