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i've never felt this way before...i've never loved someone as much as i love him...he told me i don't make him happy any more and he knows i haven't been happy for a while..he loves me and needs to be friends with me but can't be with me...it's not 10:19 and i have been crying since 8pm last night...i can't stop.. i wish i could. it was exactly 11 months and 11 days. and my first real relationship and now break up. if someone could let me know how to stop crying please call me 492 1476..i really need to talk to someone...actually i need to talk to claire. i talked to my mom but she can't stop crying cause she's my mom so i need someone else. i have jeana and she's been a great friend but i need others i hate being alone...im going to have fun this weekend though and now nothing can stop me well nothing would stop before but yeah i don't know...i have to admit it was a good breakup he came over to my apt and told me and we talked and he held me all night while we both cried i know he loves me he's just scared cause this is his first real relationship also...im going to get the bread out of the proofer now and put it in the oven cause im in school right now...i hate school soooo much the only reason i stayed here this year was because of him so now i don't know what to do
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call me with an answer please