can't do it by myself....
nobody even reads this fucking thing anymore. It's 3:26 and i have class at 12:30 tomorrow afternoon but i can't fucking sleep cause I slept 14 HOURS last night, didn't wake up until 4:30 in the fucking afternoon. fuckers.
i spend every single day with Scott. now, in your opinion, is that too much time to spend with a boyfriend/girlfriend? he told me something tonight that i had no idea about, that he pretty much lied to me about for three months. well, not really lied.. okay yeah, he lied to keep something else a secret. i'm not mad.. i was shocked and surprised though...
i started taking Zantrex 3 six days ago. it makes me feel all hyper and sheit.
and beana, if you read this, myspace (well, YOURspace) wasn't a mean joke meant to be funny. and shut up about that STUPID fat and ugly shit. you KNOW you're not and you know i HATE it when amber says that shit... it's not even CLOSE to being the truth. you're beautiful and AMAZING so SHUT THE FUCK UP <3
if you read ANY part of this at all... please leave a comment, even if it's anonymously, because i really really would like to know who's reading my sheit and if it's even worth writing down anymore. i'll love you more for it, i swear.
i feel sick. how shitty. i miss high school and the friends i used to have that don't give a shit about me anymore.
fuck LBCC.
fuck tummy aches.
fuck this uncertain feeling i have that everything's going wrong.
everything.
i love scott with all that i have... but i don't know how long we're gonna last and it scares me every god damn day.
FUCK.