Mostly heartbroken
I had plans to spend the long weekend hanging out with Holly. She lives in Suwon, a city about an hour south of here. Yeah I sort of love Holly but our moment was a long time ago and I didn't have any expectations for the meeting. I just had expectations... of a meeting.
Holly cancelled on me. Instead of spending three days hanging out, we'll spend two hours together having dinner. And yeah, she's busy for the whole of May so basically we spend two hours together and that's it.
Story of my fucking life.
Holly called and told me that she had to cancel because she has friends who are coming to Seoul that she has to meet. Yeah, I'm a friend and we haven't seen each other for 14 months, but she has to cancel in favour of two other friends.
Story of my fucking life.
I just want some woman somewhere to view me as more than an obligation. More than someone who has to be slotted into an already busy schedule. I want someone to actually cancel plans to be with me... to think of meeting me as a priority... something that might bring cause her to feel some excitement.
And yeah, I know that I'm only pissed off because I used to be in love with this girl. If it was someone else then I would happily reschedule for the following month or something. But fuck it... I've given up on love and passion... I just want the fucking fantasy of someone actually giving a damn... the fantasy that maybe there is a slight possibility of the girl that I like (any girl that I like) actually "coming around" someday. But what have I got? Two hours.
Fuck.
Holly cancelled on me. Instead of spending three days hanging out, we'll spend two hours together having dinner. And yeah, she's busy for the whole of May so basically we spend two hours together and that's it.
Story of my fucking life.
Holly called and told me that she had to cancel because she has friends who are coming to Seoul that she has to meet. Yeah, I'm a friend and we haven't seen each other for 14 months, but she has to cancel in favour of two other friends.
Story of my fucking life.
I just want some woman somewhere to view me as more than an obligation. More than someone who has to be slotted into an already busy schedule. I want someone to actually cancel plans to be with me... to think of meeting me as a priority... something that might bring cause her to feel some excitement.
And yeah, I know that I'm only pissed off because I used to be in love with this girl. If it was someone else then I would happily reschedule for the following month or something. But fuck it... I've given up on love and passion... I just want the fucking fantasy of someone actually giving a damn... the fantasy that maybe there is a slight possibility of the girl that I like (any girl that I like) actually "coming around" someday. But what have I got? Two hours.
Fuck.