this took me too long :[
TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN:
today i realized that when i really want to be someones friend and i make the effort to talk to them, they lose interest in me. its like they look at me and see someone that looks interesting, then right when i open my mouth and actually begin to introduce myself, they dont care what so ever. this year, thats happened way too many times and it doesnt feel good. sure, i've made a few friends this year, but none of them are the kind of friend that would call me on a friday night to see what i'm doing or come and hang out with me during lunch. thats what i really want, a group of friends that call me just to see whats up or how i'm doing or whatever... that feels the best. this year i just dont feel is going to be a good year. i want new friends. but they don't want me.
END.
today i realized that when i really want to be someones friend and i make the effort to talk to them, they lose interest in me. its like they look at me and see someone that looks interesting, then right when i open my mouth and actually begin to introduce myself, they dont care what so ever. this year, thats happened way too many times and it doesnt feel good. sure, i've made a few friends this year, but none of them are the kind of friend that would call me on a friday night to see what i'm doing or come and hang out with me during lunch. thats what i really want, a group of friends that call me just to see whats up or how i'm doing or whatever... that feels the best. this year i just dont feel is going to be a good year. i want new friends. but they don't want me.
END.