another day i breathe for you
i preform in an hour .. hikes.. or.. well an hour and 20 min.. 10 min.. im so so scared
mel you make me happy!!!
and i think you are so great!! so dont be sad and dont be wrapped up in all sad sad sadness
eek.. yeah so i was all depressed and whatnot for the last 3 weeks... meh.. its getting better.. and i think im settling into my new room (new home)
its nice!!
hum..
i dont know what else to say..
i supose there isnt much else to say really...
... i dont know.. i talked to sarah yesterday!! i belive we are fine =D
i dont know though.. humm in time we'll seee
i married davina.. and christy made me a neclace to keep forever.. jenny gave me a braclet that she has never taken off .. she put it on in the begining of 8th grade!!!
these people are great!!
jordan.. i want to hang out with that kid.. i miss him. caral as well..
things with ricky are coming to a check i think.. im still really confused about everything.. but he's on the same page.. so thats good....
humm..
i made my phycologist cry.. haha that was sad.. i didnt mean to.. but i broke down talking to her (about my mom) meh
things with that are etting worse.. i saw her looking at all my baby stuff.. will's too.. i asked her if all the things she has are killing her.. she said in time her body will give up.. and if not.. she herself cant go on... i knew what that meant and so did she.. someone in that much pain.. i dont blame her.. =/
shes like an infant now... almost all the way..
the other night i had to feed her.. litterally.. it was sad.. she had no emotion on her face.. she just sat there .. i fed her soft foods. mush.. the only things she can eat now.. i wanted t hold her i knew i couldnt.. seeing her.. she was never ever like that.. we would wrestle and run around in stores and get into trouble with eachother.. and now.. she cant even move.. she cant even cry.. the tears are to heavy for her skin...
so she cant feel.. and she cant take any medicines to get this to be any better..
so.. i spend all the time i can with her...
mainly i sit doing nothing.. the sound of my voice, my wisper hurts her skin.. its like even that is too heavy..
so i sit..
well its about time to go now
(its funny how i can say i have nothing to say and then i speak way too much.. people are right.. i talk too much!)
have a great day all!!!
mel i miss you!! <<33333 i win!!
mel you make me happy!!!
and i think you are so great!! so dont be sad and dont be wrapped up in all sad sad sadness
eek.. yeah so i was all depressed and whatnot for the last 3 weeks... meh.. its getting better.. and i think im settling into my new room (new home)
its nice!!
hum..
i dont know what else to say..
i supose there isnt much else to say really...
... i dont know.. i talked to sarah yesterday!! i belive we are fine =D
i dont know though.. humm in time we'll seee
i married davina.. and christy made me a neclace to keep forever.. jenny gave me a braclet that she has never taken off .. she put it on in the begining of 8th grade!!!
these people are great!!
jordan.. i want to hang out with that kid.. i miss him. caral as well..
things with ricky are coming to a check i think.. im still really confused about everything.. but he's on the same page.. so thats good....
humm..
i made my phycologist cry.. haha that was sad.. i didnt mean to.. but i broke down talking to her (about my mom) meh
things with that are etting worse.. i saw her looking at all my baby stuff.. will's too.. i asked her if all the things she has are killing her.. she said in time her body will give up.. and if not.. she herself cant go on... i knew what that meant and so did she.. someone in that much pain.. i dont blame her.. =/
shes like an infant now... almost all the way..
the other night i had to feed her.. litterally.. it was sad.. she had no emotion on her face.. she just sat there .. i fed her soft foods. mush.. the only things she can eat now.. i wanted t hold her i knew i couldnt.. seeing her.. she was never ever like that.. we would wrestle and run around in stores and get into trouble with eachother.. and now.. she cant even move.. she cant even cry.. the tears are to heavy for her skin...
so she cant feel.. and she cant take any medicines to get this to be any better..
so.. i spend all the time i can with her...
mainly i sit doing nothing.. the sound of my voice, my wisper hurts her skin.. its like even that is too heavy..
so i sit..
well its about time to go now
(its funny how i can say i have nothing to say and then i speak way too much.. people are right.. i talk too much!)
have a great day all!!!
mel i miss you!! <<33333 i win!!