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it's sunshiney out, and i feel like i'm in another world. there is the shade of big, snappy leaves, and chipping, light blue paint. the air vibrates with that kind of charming antiquity that comes with cleavage, big dresses, manners, buckled black shoes and parasols. the kind you see on printed napkins. it's not even my porch; maybe it's weird that i'm sitting here.
it is a slight secret of mine that is becoming less and less secret to me that i half wish i lived on campus. i sort of feel like a stranger here. even in the town, not just at school. i don't mind so much... i mean. i can handle it. i just wish i wasn't so unknowing. i feel like i'm crazy out of everything. i think i will suppose to immerse myself more thoroughly next semester. or, at the very least, submerge my knees. goodness. but i don't like to think about it, because i don't like to admit there's a chance i am anything but completely satisfied with my apartment, and my life in and around it.
i realized i have a lot of winter clothes, and a fair number of tank tops and dresses. i don't really have anything in between, and that irks me to no end.
however. i do have an interview at tops saturday morning. (though for some reason i was less than immediate in my response to them. i wonder at my hesitancy.)
i pine after change.
it is a slight secret of mine that is becoming less and less secret to me that i half wish i lived on campus. i sort of feel like a stranger here. even in the town, not just at school. i don't mind so much... i mean. i can handle it. i just wish i wasn't so unknowing. i feel like i'm crazy out of everything. i think i will suppose to immerse myself more thoroughly next semester. or, at the very least, submerge my knees. goodness. but i don't like to think about it, because i don't like to admit there's a chance i am anything but completely satisfied with my apartment, and my life in and around it.
i realized i have a lot of winter clothes, and a fair number of tank tops and dresses. i don't really have anything in between, and that irks me to no end.
however. i do have an interview at tops saturday morning. (though for some reason i was less than immediate in my response to them. i wonder at my hesitancy.)
i pine after change.