Ricci worked out.
My left jab is weak, almost hurt my wrist and thumb. So now I have to work out my triceps and bicepts so my one two three combo is fatal. I punch with my right two times then come in with my left. Its the last hit that counts the most, the first two take 'em off gard. My foot work is not there, I don't do any. I should work on that. So my day has mainly been working out. I start out with running for ten mins, then move onto my arms and thighs(we have a work out machine for that), then lastly I go to the punching bags. Tommarow I want to invite Katy over,I wish Kelly was avilibel but her mom is gone so she has to stay home..I don't think her mom trusts Katy or I I don't know why. Her sister gets her boyfriend over, but Kelly gets no one what are we gonna do? Rape her? It would totaly be consensual j/k ^^. I don't know why I am training myself or why I am obsessed with always wanting to be the strongest. Ever sice I can remeber I have been this way. Maybe it's because I couldn't do anything to help mom when she was with Dad, but I don't even remeber it. But does that matter? Bah, I don't know anything about psychology so who knows?
Trevor and I got into a sprited debate yesterday night. I told him that I don't think I am ment fo love and he got all insaulted. Why is that? Not the point, I told him that I belive that love is a chemical inblanced that is triggerd by sex. I belive that humans are alot like animals, we want to sred our DNA and "live on" or make our mark on the world by our young. The pleasure we feel when we have sex, I belive, is a motavator that we have so we want to spred our seed more. It is provin that when girls have an orgasim it is easire for them to get pregnant. What about homosexuals? The fact they are attracted to the same sex does not make a differace. They see the others as mates and well, do what mates do. I belive that they see members of the opposite sex not as mates and there for not attrated to them much like animals who see different animals not as mates. If they could impregnate their mates I don't think it would make a difference who they were attracted to. My point is that love is started by sex wither they know it or not. I belive that yes, humans can mate for life. Sure there are exeptions..alot of them but in the end they do want a mate for life. Once they have offsring and a stable invornment they tend to stay together. I don't know, right now I am all over the place because..well..I don't know.
Right now I am an un-known mixture of emotions. I'm sad yet blank yet normal. I feel as though I can't trust myself and I know I never have. Maybe its because I feel as though I'm alone..I really need to talk to a friend right now but its too late. I'm on the brink of tears. Damn my teenagerness. I felt alone all day and just relized it now. Thats why I was eating all the time ^^J I wish I has AIM. I really needed some one today, but Katy was sick and no way in hell would mom drive me any where. I was too scared to call anyone, I didn't want to seem like a wimp. I am supposed to be the strong one, I have too many people counting on me to be there for them. Maybe I should quit writint for the day huh?
Hasat Luego.
Trevor and I got into a sprited debate yesterday night. I told him that I don't think I am ment fo love and he got all insaulted. Why is that? Not the point, I told him that I belive that love is a chemical inblanced that is triggerd by sex. I belive that humans are alot like animals, we want to sred our DNA and "live on" or make our mark on the world by our young. The pleasure we feel when we have sex, I belive, is a motavator that we have so we want to spred our seed more. It is provin that when girls have an orgasim it is easire for them to get pregnant. What about homosexuals? The fact they are attracted to the same sex does not make a differace. They see the others as mates and well, do what mates do. I belive that they see members of the opposite sex not as mates and there for not attrated to them much like animals who see different animals not as mates. If they could impregnate their mates I don't think it would make a difference who they were attracted to. My point is that love is started by sex wither they know it or not. I belive that yes, humans can mate for life. Sure there are exeptions..alot of them but in the end they do want a mate for life. Once they have offsring and a stable invornment they tend to stay together. I don't know, right now I am all over the place because..well..I don't know.
Right now I am an un-known mixture of emotions. I'm sad yet blank yet normal. I feel as though I can't trust myself and I know I never have. Maybe its because I feel as though I'm alone..I really need to talk to a friend right now but its too late. I'm on the brink of tears. Damn my teenagerness. I felt alone all day and just relized it now. Thats why I was eating all the time ^^J I wish I has AIM. I really needed some one today, but Katy was sick and no way in hell would mom drive me any where. I was too scared to call anyone, I didn't want to seem like a wimp. I am supposed to be the strong one, I have too many people counting on me to be there for them. Maybe I should quit writint for the day huh?
Hasat Luego.