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The other night I was sitting on my bed about to take my pills when I thought I should count them and see how much I had left. I poured the bottle in my hand and thought, If I took all of them at once no one would know how much I took or how long it would take for all the medicine to be released. It would be a mildly slow death probably only a few hours but still it would be pretty sudden when it hit.
I let the pills slip through my fingers and the feeling was so odd I kept doing it thinking about what it would be like to die but then I knew just take my regular dose and put the rest away. I had been down that road before and I am not sure I want to go back.
I feel like just throwing up right now my stomach feels like a ticking time bomb.
There comes a point when I just want to stop everything and hide from the world.
I let the pills slip through my fingers and the feeling was so odd I kept doing it thinking about what it would be like to die but then I knew just take my regular dose and put the rest away. I had been down that road before and I am not sure I want to go back.
I feel like just throwing up right now my stomach feels like a ticking time bomb.
There comes a point when I just want to stop everything and hide from the world.