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So... this is kinda silly and pointless. But I was just going through videos on my hard drive and I came across the video I made last year about my summer in NH with Nicki, and it made me want to watch some of the original footage, so I did.
And there was just this one little bit that really got to me tonight for some reason. In a good way. It was from one night/morning (2am) when Nicki was just babbling to the camera, as she liked to do. lol. And I was just sitting in the background and I wouldn't cooperate and talk to the camera or give her a topic to talk about, so she called me a psycho hose beast and I pinched her on the butt.
1. If any of my friends I'd been around my whole life called me names like that, even in fun, it would have hurt. I know it's stupid, but I grew up incredibly sensitive to any form of teasing. My family couldn't even tease me, I would get so upset, I was so insecure. And I guess I never knew if any of my friends actually cared enough that they didn't mean it when they called me names. Which sucks. Everyone should have friends they can trust and truly believe care about them. I didn't. Not until Nicki. She could call me whatever the hell she liked and I'd just laugh or flip her off because I knew she loved me as much as I loved her and she didn't mean any of it. I knew it.
2. I can't think of any of my friends then or now that I would feel comfortable enough with to just lean over and pinch their ass. lol. Keep in mind, at this point in our friendship, I'd known her about 6 months and had only known her in person for 1 month. But it just felt like I'd known her forever.
Anyway, like I said, it's stupid, and I'm not even sure why I'm sharing it. It's gonna sound silly, especially after you watch it and see how random and pointless it is, but everyone should have a friend like this at least once in their lives, even if they friendship doesn't last forever.
And there was just this one little bit that really got to me tonight for some reason. In a good way. It was from one night/morning (2am) when Nicki was just babbling to the camera, as she liked to do. lol. And I was just sitting in the background and I wouldn't cooperate and talk to the camera or give her a topic to talk about, so she called me a psycho hose beast and I pinched her on the butt.
1. If any of my friends I'd been around my whole life called me names like that, even in fun, it would have hurt. I know it's stupid, but I grew up incredibly sensitive to any form of teasing. My family couldn't even tease me, I would get so upset, I was so insecure. And I guess I never knew if any of my friends actually cared enough that they didn't mean it when they called me names. Which sucks. Everyone should have friends they can trust and truly believe care about them. I didn't. Not until Nicki. She could call me whatever the hell she liked and I'd just laugh or flip her off because I knew she loved me as much as I loved her and she didn't mean any of it. I knew it.
2. I can't think of any of my friends then or now that I would feel comfortable enough with to just lean over and pinch their ass. lol. Keep in mind, at this point in our friendship, I'd known her about 6 months and had only known her in person for 1 month. But it just felt like I'd known her forever.
Anyway, like I said, it's stupid, and I'm not even sure why I'm sharing it. It's gonna sound silly, especially after you watch it and see how random and pointless it is, but everyone should have a friend like this at least once in their lives, even if they friendship doesn't last forever.
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