shore and same mistakes

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there is that moment when youre standing alone. the moment you realize you have  a choice to change or to go back to the way its always been. there is always a choice whether you know it or not. it is the choice to act or to forgo. there is that moment when you feel so lonely. where the tides all seem to be going in all different directions but all tides end up on the shore. im in a new place looking for a brand new shore. a shore where the sun will always rise but not in the same shades. where the sun always sets but the stars align in a new pattern, shape. there is that moment that you realize that the sand is the same everywhere. it still falls through your hand, escapes you. but nothing is perfect even if it is grand. i couldnt allow myself to the place where ive always been where the tears and the tide became one. where empty is home and home is where ive always been.

its in this moment that i feel so alone. that if maybe time will repeat itself and ill be back to the center of the ocean with no way to know which tide to ride home. i thought i had chosen the right tide but the tide maybe good until i get to the shore. a place where the same old story seems to unfold like it has before. if there is a star out there please let it know that im searching for a new shore, a new home.