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i know it's been a while and so much has been going on. i feel like i've been picked up by a whorl wind of trouble, and it seems as though i'm the cause.
as soon as we get out of school, it's been quite a few boys and some friendships going down hill. i apologize to everyone for the mess i made. and though we all might not be as close as we were, you guys are very important to me and i feel like a douche, i just didn't think what happened would piss everyone off soo much. but whatever happened happened and all i can do is say sorry.
i'm a little tired of my parents and their constant bringing me down. it's as if it's been all hell having me as their child. i'm not skinny enough, smart enough, or motivated enough. i need to care about this that and the other thing. well i don't and thats not going to change.
i'm not even going to touch on the subject of boys much other than the fact that ryan (not sharpe) is extremely frustrating, mark was a bad decision, and then there's the random boy i met at great adventure, thats leaving in 3 weeks. Andre is sweet, how ever horrible his english maybe. i'm just going to go with it for now and take it as it comes. there's no point in trying to make decisions, i'll just let them do it for me. no relationships for me, there way to hard. i'm going to take the ashley way of doing things and have more then one kind of boyfriend, it's easier that way.
i've been so busy and crazy lately, it makes me happy. i hate beeing bored and sitting still for too long, it's frustrating. i'm excited to go to puerto rico with my cousin's. that should be crazy as anything, haha i'll have more exciting adventures to report in here. it's been an amazing summer, i hope it just gets better. i'm learning to risk a little more, i'm not so afraid of what people think anymore.
as soon as we get out of school, it's been quite a few boys and some friendships going down hill. i apologize to everyone for the mess i made. and though we all might not be as close as we were, you guys are very important to me and i feel like a douche, i just didn't think what happened would piss everyone off soo much. but whatever happened happened and all i can do is say sorry.
i'm a little tired of my parents and their constant bringing me down. it's as if it's been all hell having me as their child. i'm not skinny enough, smart enough, or motivated enough. i need to care about this that and the other thing. well i don't and thats not going to change.
i'm not even going to touch on the subject of boys much other than the fact that ryan (not sharpe) is extremely frustrating, mark was a bad decision, and then there's the random boy i met at great adventure, thats leaving in 3 weeks. Andre is sweet, how ever horrible his english maybe. i'm just going to go with it for now and take it as it comes. there's no point in trying to make decisions, i'll just let them do it for me. no relationships for me, there way to hard. i'm going to take the ashley way of doing things and have more then one kind of boyfriend, it's easier that way.
i've been so busy and crazy lately, it makes me happy. i hate beeing bored and sitting still for too long, it's frustrating. i'm excited to go to puerto rico with my cousin's. that should be crazy as anything, haha i'll have more exciting adventures to report in here. it's been an amazing summer, i hope it just gets better. i'm learning to risk a little more, i'm not so afraid of what people think anymore.