mothers day
May 10
food-
half bagel, oj
leftovers- salad, pasta, rib, salmon, 2 cookies
goldfish, cashews, salad, chicken, veggie orzo, ice cream, wine, orange slices
exercise- playing in the ocean, a few short walks
Being at the beach is really awesome. I don't even think I knew how much I needed this trip. Although 4 days will probably be plenty, it is good to be with my family for the time being. Today started out with a walk with Jonathan to the Lost Dog Cafe to get him some coffee (the coffee my parents make isn't caffeinated enough for him). Unfortunately, while we were there I was sort of nearly thrown up on by a little girl. Luckily I was able to bolt out of the restaurant to wait for Jonathan and then was able to brush off the incident. When I went to wish my mom a happy mother's day, she started to say "you too!" before realizing that didn't apply, haha. Mom, Dad, Jonathan and I packed up for the beach (which, is taking longer and longer as my parents have increasing necessary items to take with them). Anyway, the weather was pretty much perfect and we spent the morning reading with a break at one point to go swim in the ocean. Mom does not participate in that. I wore my new swimsuit from Target- a bikini! for the first time in 5 or 6 years. This is probably the first year I've just been able to BE at the beach, and haven't had to spend the whole week ferociously hating my body. There is plenty I don't love about it, but, for the time, it'll do :) . My mom at one point said she was "envious of my figure" while we were out on the beach, and it made me a little sad. I am not sure why, really. I had spent so many years feeling like I had to compete with her, really, on matters of smallness. I don't know. I just want her to be happy, too. I think that mothers feeling envious of their daughters is not a new concept, but I think my mom kept me sheltered from it for a long time. I can think though, of times I've felt incredibly jealous of children, so I understand it. But I also understand how you wouldn't want to make a kid feel guilty for it. Anyway. After that, we went in for a really random hodgepodge lunch: Asian salad, seafood, italian pasta, bbq ribs. I opted to stay in after lunch to make a card for mothers day, and when I was done, it had started raining, so I didn't get back out to the beach. The card turned out well, I used puffpaint, as usual, and painted a little tomato plant and bluebird on the card since she is growing tomatoes this year. I read for a long time on the porch (Angels & Demons), and late in the afternoon, the power went out. Unfortunately, the brothers and i were supposed to be cooking dinner. The chicken we were planning on grilling anyway, so that wasn't altered. But for the orzo, we needed to roast the vegetables in the oven, and cook the pasta. Luckily we realized we have a gas stove. So we were able to light it and procede with the pasta. The vegetables we just cooked on the stove as well, and ta da! Dinner! It was funny, right as we were getting ready to serve the plates, the electricity came back on. Mom then I suppose was going to make a toast, but after she said "a toast..." she realized it was mothers day, and so she ended the statement with "to me!" haha. It was really funny. Dinner was good, and mom liked her cards and ipod we got her (just a little shuffle). Patrick brilliantly ate an entire orange slice, peel and all, with the sticker on it. After dinner we went for a walk with the whole family, including the dog. Then we settled in with ice cream and the movie Driving Miss Daisy, which none of the kids had ever seen. Good movie. I guess that is pretty much my day. I wanted to call Juliette and wish her a happy mothers day, but i got nervous and never did it. :( I need to learn to be a little more bold. Today I keep thinking about the fact that my mom lost her mom when she was 20. I just can't fathom that. It hurts to think about how horrible that must have been for my mother. My parents had just gotten married and spent their first year together driving back and forth from Atlanta to North Carolina every other weekend or so, during the gas shortage. My grandmother died of brain cancer, I think in the summer of '73. I can't imagine getting married and having kids and not being able to consult my mom, or share my kids with my mom. I wish I had been more aware of how sad it was as a kid. I probably just thought like, when you are an adult, you are an adult, who doesn't need parents. SO WRONG. Anyway, that's just been on my mind today. That and the fact that my parents are starting to age quickly. It is scary and saddening.
food-
half bagel, oj
leftovers- salad, pasta, rib, salmon, 2 cookies
goldfish, cashews, salad, chicken, veggie orzo, ice cream, wine, orange slices
exercise- playing in the ocean, a few short walks
Being at the beach is really awesome. I don't even think I knew how much I needed this trip. Although 4 days will probably be plenty, it is good to be with my family for the time being. Today started out with a walk with Jonathan to the Lost Dog Cafe to get him some coffee (the coffee my parents make isn't caffeinated enough for him). Unfortunately, while we were there I was sort of nearly thrown up on by a little girl. Luckily I was able to bolt out of the restaurant to wait for Jonathan and then was able to brush off the incident. When I went to wish my mom a happy mother's day, she started to say "you too!" before realizing that didn't apply, haha. Mom, Dad, Jonathan and I packed up for the beach (which, is taking longer and longer as my parents have increasing necessary items to take with them). Anyway, the weather was pretty much perfect and we spent the morning reading with a break at one point to go swim in the ocean. Mom does not participate in that. I wore my new swimsuit from Target- a bikini! for the first time in 5 or 6 years. This is probably the first year I've just been able to BE at the beach, and haven't had to spend the whole week ferociously hating my body. There is plenty I don't love about it, but, for the time, it'll do :) . My mom at one point said she was "envious of my figure" while we were out on the beach, and it made me a little sad. I am not sure why, really. I had spent so many years feeling like I had to compete with her, really, on matters of smallness. I don't know. I just want her to be happy, too. I think that mothers feeling envious of their daughters is not a new concept, but I think my mom kept me sheltered from it for a long time. I can think though, of times I've felt incredibly jealous of children, so I understand it. But I also understand how you wouldn't want to make a kid feel guilty for it. Anyway. After that, we went in for a really random hodgepodge lunch: Asian salad, seafood, italian pasta, bbq ribs. I opted to stay in after lunch to make a card for mothers day, and when I was done, it had started raining, so I didn't get back out to the beach. The card turned out well, I used puffpaint, as usual, and painted a little tomato plant and bluebird on the card since she is growing tomatoes this year. I read for a long time on the porch (Angels & Demons), and late in the afternoon, the power went out. Unfortunately, the brothers and i were supposed to be cooking dinner. The chicken we were planning on grilling anyway, so that wasn't altered. But for the orzo, we needed to roast the vegetables in the oven, and cook the pasta. Luckily we realized we have a gas stove. So we were able to light it and procede with the pasta. The vegetables we just cooked on the stove as well, and ta da! Dinner! It was funny, right as we were getting ready to serve the plates, the electricity came back on. Mom then I suppose was going to make a toast, but after she said "a toast..." she realized it was mothers day, and so she ended the statement with "to me!" haha. It was really funny. Dinner was good, and mom liked her cards and ipod we got her (just a little shuffle). Patrick brilliantly ate an entire orange slice, peel and all, with the sticker on it. After dinner we went for a walk with the whole family, including the dog. Then we settled in with ice cream and the movie Driving Miss Daisy, which none of the kids had ever seen. Good movie. I guess that is pretty much my day. I wanted to call Juliette and wish her a happy mothers day, but i got nervous and never did it. :( I need to learn to be a little more bold. Today I keep thinking about the fact that my mom lost her mom when she was 20. I just can't fathom that. It hurts to think about how horrible that must have been for my mother. My parents had just gotten married and spent their first year together driving back and forth from Atlanta to North Carolina every other weekend or so, during the gas shortage. My grandmother died of brain cancer, I think in the summer of '73. I can't imagine getting married and having kids and not being able to consult my mom, or share my kids with my mom. I wish I had been more aware of how sad it was as a kid. I probably just thought like, when you are an adult, you are an adult, who doesn't need parents. SO WRONG. Anyway, that's just been on my mind today. That and the fact that my parents are starting to age quickly. It is scary and saddening.