oh no

[wat_da_heezy]

ooooh lj
how I've missed you
this takes me back to a simpler time

well ANY time is probably more simple then right now
Because I am very very very confused.

....I don't even know who I am anymore.
For the last few years I've been doing things one way
But now I'm not sure if I have been doing it because thats who I am
or if I've been like playing a part and not really being myself

if I HAVE been being myself and this is just who I am now, then I should stay exactly where I am and not change anything.
But if this is NOT who I am (or not whom I wish to continue being) then I need to make some major changes...

...but how major?? What to change? Just my scenery? or the company I keep as well??
Is there a better situation for me?

What I really need is to take some time away and figure out exactly what I want
But that would mean that if I choose what I already have...idk if I can go back to it.
sooooo.....

Can anything have 2 wholes? I guess if you cut a worm in half it actually makes 2 different worms.
But a person is not a worm....is our version of this just split personalities?