Over it
I think that the reason I am content with my personality and the way I carry myself is not becsuse I like my self as a person nearly as much as there was a time that I didn't like myself. You may be thinking, "How can you not like yourself as a person? That would be an easy thing to change." It wasn't so easy and I think it took me a few years to change it. I think it was when I gave up on trying to control every aspect of my life and let things happen. When I started to let go and not try to control others and myself as much I found happiness. I found out how few real friends I had, although there were some, I found that I just gravitated to people who ended up being better friends.
I guess the reason why this makes me so happy is mostly because I began to feel. I never really wrote about this or talked about it much before that I can remember, but I'm pretty sure I didn't feel much of anything for awhile. It was only for about half a year, but in that half a year I wasn't miserable, I wasn't happy, I wasn't even content, I was just there. I had no real emotions. Nothing angered me all that much, nothing really got me excited. I didn't really feel the bad but I didn't feel the good and I kinda like feeling the bad too in a completely non-emo way. I think it was only a few people who helped me change. It was no more than 5 or 6 and maybe as little as 2, but either way, I am grateful because I am different now. I don't believe I've ever had a noticible chang to others, but I think I see the change in me pretty clearly.
Wow, what a blast from the past. Who writes about Junior High and High School still. Apparently me.
I guess the reason why this makes me so happy is mostly because I began to feel. I never really wrote about this or talked about it much before that I can remember, but I'm pretty sure I didn't feel much of anything for awhile. It was only for about half a year, but in that half a year I wasn't miserable, I wasn't happy, I wasn't even content, I was just there. I had no real emotions. Nothing angered me all that much, nothing really got me excited. I didn't really feel the bad but I didn't feel the good and I kinda like feeling the bad too in a completely non-emo way. I think it was only a few people who helped me change. It was no more than 5 or 6 and maybe as little as 2, but either way, I am grateful because I am different now. I don't believe I've ever had a noticible chang to others, but I think I see the change in me pretty clearly.
Wow, what a blast from the past. Who writes about Junior High and High School still. Apparently me.