the gap between cynicism and optimism is truth. finding it is the hard part.

[wasting_paint]

it's been a while.

it feels like life is slowly crashing down on me, bit by bit.
and until tonight, i thought i'd be okay regardless.
but right now i just feel very, very..... disconnected.
and connection is what i(most of us) live for.

after a horribly long break, a falling out all over again with my best friend, miscommunications with everyone i love and need here, the work picking up too fast, being scared out of my mind for a girl i love, and my dad being laid off

all i want is to sleep.
and sleep.