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woooo. its 4:15 and i'm awake. not from lack of trying to sleep however. i've been trying for over an hour. it failed. i'm ridiculosly tired though.
my brothers can't take a hint. so i turned on the parental controls on internet explorer. maybe that will helpa little. i guess tomorrow i'll talk to my mom. i doubt it will do any good though.
basically i'm watching my family fall apart. my mom doesnt deserve this. i'm suer she knows that, but she puts up with it because there is so much stuff she can't do alone she needs help with so much and i'm leaving. i'm only 19 i'm not supposed to feel horrible for growing up and moving on. i'm supposed to be carefree and feel invincible. instead i'm afraid to leave for school. right now i'm working on my stuff for financial aid. i have to mail it by friday so i a can apply for loans. i should have done this months ago. in fact i started back in april but didn't have the right forms. i have the right ones now. well kinda. they are the wrong year. but its just going to have to work.
alright nevermind. i can't find the right forms looks like i'm not doing my financial aid stuff. so yipee my mom and i get to go to h&r block and try and get new copies. hopefully i will get this done tomorrow or wednesday. i need loans. bad. actually until i send in one form i have no financial aid. which is really bad. i need to learn to stop procrastinating. then again last year i didn't do most of this until july. and some in august after the deadline. so i'm early. yay.
my brothers can't take a hint. so i turned on the parental controls on internet explorer. maybe that will helpa little. i guess tomorrow i'll talk to my mom. i doubt it will do any good though.
basically i'm watching my family fall apart. my mom doesnt deserve this. i'm suer she knows that, but she puts up with it because there is so much stuff she can't do alone she needs help with so much and i'm leaving. i'm only 19 i'm not supposed to feel horrible for growing up and moving on. i'm supposed to be carefree and feel invincible. instead i'm afraid to leave for school. right now i'm working on my stuff for financial aid. i have to mail it by friday so i a can apply for loans. i should have done this months ago. in fact i started back in april but didn't have the right forms. i have the right ones now. well kinda. they are the wrong year. but its just going to have to work.
alright nevermind. i can't find the right forms looks like i'm not doing my financial aid stuff. so yipee my mom and i get to go to h&r block and try and get new copies. hopefully i will get this done tomorrow or wednesday. i need loans. bad. actually until i send in one form i have no financial aid. which is really bad. i need to learn to stop procrastinating. then again last year i didn't do most of this until july. and some in august after the deadline. so i'm early. yay.