May 30, 2005 00:33
best of times and worst of times, indeed. i think that accurately sums up this weekend. but i'm happy nonetheless. despite whatever may happen in the days to come.
i feel like i've been so busy as of late. having next weekend off will be well needed and appreciated. so many plans, so little time. i feel like a new person as of very recently. i'm not entirely sure if I like it or not. i still feel so confused. my heart never really knows what it's doing.
everyone needs a checklist of life. an honest assessment of all of the memorable things you have already done as well as the goals you aspire to. bullets on the checklist can relate to any facet of life. I'm working on mine. I know one thing that is already on the list, at the top. two, three. many more to come.
watched some of american beauty yesterday and today. reflects how I feel right now in so many ways. definitely on my recommended movie list, i've seen it about twenty times. i try and make everyone see it at least once.
i hope they do the job well. i'm worried not out of a lack of trust but an honest slip. i should learn to keep my mouth shut, i think. wow, who knows what could happen?
i've thought so much tonight i'm twice as worried as i was before. time to listen to some of the muse and some smashing pumpkins with a bit of nirvana thrown in to clear my head. pink floyd as well. won't that be nice.