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i think i can confidently say that i am the only person that is actually looking forward to going back to school.
i really really wish i could fall asleep and sleep until atleast 1 or 2 PM the next day. being unconscious sure would make living in this shit place a little bit better.
i tried taking pills that make you drowsy before bed last night but it almost seemed to make the insomnia worse.
ive been listening to alice cooper alot the past two days ,, not 'schools out for summer' but some awesome songs. i really am going insane. and i do believe in all honesty that my mom is a psychopath. she wakes up pissed, demands respect amoung other things(complete attention, rapid quick responses to requests, a longing to attempt to please her) once she wakes up pissed , there is nothing you can do to change that ,, even if you do everything she asks you to and even tasks she doesnt request of you,, she still isnt happy. she bitches about every goddamn thing. even if it has nothing to do with her what-so-ever. im tired of it. im tired of living with such an insatiable fucking hateful women. how the hell do you respect someone you hate and that tells you they hate you as a person. im pretty sure there is no other way to hate someone. yay for disfuckingfucntional families. they sure are fun to live in , sike.
yesterday my brother was being a jackass. and my dad comes in and i say ,, "dad , tell hilton to stop being an asshole" and my dad goes "hilton stop being an asshole" and my brother goes "tell micah to get in a wreck" and i yelled to my brother "fuck you" and all my dad did was tell us both to stop. nothing else. so much for normal family conversations. the only thing i do that's "bonding" or whatever with my brother is sit outside and smoke. or complain about my mother.
i wanna get outta here
i wanna get outta here
i gotta get outta here
i gotta get OUT of here
i really really wish i could fall asleep and sleep until atleast 1 or 2 PM the next day. being unconscious sure would make living in this shit place a little bit better.
i tried taking pills that make you drowsy before bed last night but it almost seemed to make the insomnia worse.
ive been listening to alice cooper alot the past two days ,, not 'schools out for summer' but some awesome songs. i really am going insane. and i do believe in all honesty that my mom is a psychopath. she wakes up pissed, demands respect amoung other things(complete attention, rapid quick responses to requests, a longing to attempt to please her) once she wakes up pissed , there is nothing you can do to change that ,, even if you do everything she asks you to and even tasks she doesnt request of you,, she still isnt happy. she bitches about every goddamn thing. even if it has nothing to do with her what-so-ever. im tired of it. im tired of living with such an insatiable fucking hateful women. how the hell do you respect someone you hate and that tells you they hate you as a person. im pretty sure there is no other way to hate someone. yay for disfuckingfucntional families. they sure are fun to live in , sike.
yesterday my brother was being a jackass. and my dad comes in and i say ,, "dad , tell hilton to stop being an asshole" and my dad goes "hilton stop being an asshole" and my brother goes "tell micah to get in a wreck" and i yelled to my brother "fuck you" and all my dad did was tell us both to stop. nothing else. so much for normal family conversations. the only thing i do that's "bonding" or whatever with my brother is sit outside and smoke. or complain about my mother.
i wanna get outta here
i wanna get outta here
i gotta get outta here
i gotta get OUT of here