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im up and no one else is. its freezing... i think my hand is numb.
i spent 91 dollars today because im classy. haha
im grounded....its re-diculous, i just want to hang out and have a fun time with friends but thats not happening for a while.
even though i havnt had anything important to do for the last 3 hours , ive still just sat here. fuckin lame.
i love how i always think people lie to me , or do things purposly because they don't like me. and i always over analize things that people do and i will always decide that whatever they do means that they really just hate me or they are annoyed by me or i am a burden on their lives and that im not worth the energy or time to deal with. i need to find something/someone to make me happy and be there for me always and tell me nice things and take me places. im close to having that i guess kinda but i dont trust people , or i always think that everyone changes their mind about me over night. its dumb im tired of this and feeling this way and putting up with shit and isolation and unnecessary needs , and lacking motivation and wanting to sleep away the winter and wanting you and not getting what i want and being bored and being cold and and and and and and and and
get over it.
tomorrow ill be in a good mood.
just because i said so
AND
my parents go out to some party and im totally gunna try and have someone over.
plus i get to rent movies
and lazy around
fuckyeah/
i spent 91 dollars today because im classy. haha
im grounded....its re-diculous, i just want to hang out and have a fun time with friends but thats not happening for a while.
even though i havnt had anything important to do for the last 3 hours , ive still just sat here. fuckin lame.
i love how i always think people lie to me , or do things purposly because they don't like me. and i always over analize things that people do and i will always decide that whatever they do means that they really just hate me or they are annoyed by me or i am a burden on their lives and that im not worth the energy or time to deal with. i need to find something/someone to make me happy and be there for me always and tell me nice things and take me places. im close to having that i guess kinda but i dont trust people , or i always think that everyone changes their mind about me over night. its dumb im tired of this and feeling this way and putting up with shit and isolation and unnecessary needs , and lacking motivation and wanting to sleep away the winter and wanting you and not getting what i want and being bored and being cold and and and and and and and and
get over it.
tomorrow ill be in a good mood.
just because i said so
AND
my parents go out to some party and im totally gunna try and have someone over.
plus i get to rent movies
and lazy around
fuckyeah/