not too excited
so.... school's basically over. only a few hours left tomorrow. it's kinda bitter sweet because of course i'm happy it's over but at the same time i have this like little bit of sadness just because i really don't want to spend the rest of june like working everyday at the pool. i'm just not in the mood for it. but w/e i guess i should be happy b/c no more tests and stuff for a while but it's not like a vacation. i mean i'm working 3 jobs this summer. I'm working at the pool, at rec, and as a pee wee cheerleading coach. there's also SAT tutor and catching lessons and cheerleading. so my summer is not going to be a picnic. my only vacation is camping with noelle and ashley which i'm really exicited for b/c i've never been and i kinda want to prove to myself that i can handle the outdoors like for a week but w/e.
so.... i have mixed feelings about the pool. i mean i love the fact that i get to work with my best friend but i mean some people are just ugghh and just get on my nerves. i guess i just have to get use to it. it doesn't help that we have to go in at 9am on saturday to do "drills" and this is going to be a thing we do reguarly. now i have to go look over my lifeguarding book and notes and stuff so i don't screw up b/c i CAN'T screw up. oh well but i better get paid for coming in that early.
so yeah tomorrow we get back our finals and i'm kinda nervous but i've realized i don't care that much. i think i'm going to spend more time to focus on like the subjects that i'm good in (history and english) and like focus more on things that will be good for college and what i want to do with my life b/c right now i have an idea. my mom found me a real good like internship thingy for this politician but i have to figure out when i can do that. i'll probably start during the school year if i decide to do it. idk i've just been thinking about my future a lot lately b/c i mean really it's not that far away. i mean junior year is the most important year of high school so i need to start focusing again. i have to lock down on school next fall. i NEED good and better grades. but still at the same time i'm still just like w/e. for once i just want to be those people who like dont care and just pass with like c's or d's but i can't and in reality i don't want to be one of those people b/c good grades lead to good scholarships and a good college or university and a good career. i know i know looking too much into the future but hey it all adds up some time. i've just learned to face reality sooner rather than later.
so my summer starts tomorrow at like 12:15 but it's getting a little postponement b/c i have 4 hours of driving starting at 12:30 so my summer will be beginning a little late but who cares b/c i'll be getting my permit.
so yeah that's life. summer is going to be extremely hectic but hey why not just party right through to b/c that's what i'm going to do. i've gotta use up my youth while i still have it!!
so.... i have mixed feelings about the pool. i mean i love the fact that i get to work with my best friend but i mean some people are just ugghh and just get on my nerves. i guess i just have to get use to it. it doesn't help that we have to go in at 9am on saturday to do "drills" and this is going to be a thing we do reguarly. now i have to go look over my lifeguarding book and notes and stuff so i don't screw up b/c i CAN'T screw up. oh well but i better get paid for coming in that early.
so yeah tomorrow we get back our finals and i'm kinda nervous but i've realized i don't care that much. i think i'm going to spend more time to focus on like the subjects that i'm good in (history and english) and like focus more on things that will be good for college and what i want to do with my life b/c right now i have an idea. my mom found me a real good like internship thingy for this politician but i have to figure out when i can do that. i'll probably start during the school year if i decide to do it. idk i've just been thinking about my future a lot lately b/c i mean really it's not that far away. i mean junior year is the most important year of high school so i need to start focusing again. i have to lock down on school next fall. i NEED good and better grades. but still at the same time i'm still just like w/e. for once i just want to be those people who like dont care and just pass with like c's or d's but i can't and in reality i don't want to be one of those people b/c good grades lead to good scholarships and a good college or university and a good career. i know i know looking too much into the future but hey it all adds up some time. i've just learned to face reality sooner rather than later.
so my summer starts tomorrow at like 12:15 but it's getting a little postponement b/c i have 4 hours of driving starting at 12:30 so my summer will be beginning a little late but who cares b/c i'll be getting my permit.
so yeah that's life. summer is going to be extremely hectic but hey why not just party right through to b/c that's what i'm going to do. i've gotta use up my youth while i still have it!!