Aug 05, 2004 00:35
Here is a (+) and (-) comparison about shows.
(+) meeting new people that like the kind of music i like
(+) seeing bands that i admire do what they do best LIVE in action
(+) maybe getting to chat with the musicians i admire
(+) cool merch
(+) having fun listening to a band
(+) having something to relate to
(-) running into a lot of shitty people
(-) having to deal with all of the drama
(-) being caught up in the high school mentality of the people that regularly attend these shows
(-) getting hit on by bouncers, promoters, guys in bands, merch guys
(-) not being able to resist some guys in bands
(-) realizing that these guys don't care about me
(-) realizing that these guys are not playing music for the MUSIC, but for the scene
(-) being forced to think about a lot of shitty bands who think they can make it, but in reality should just die or something because they're wasting their time
(-) lots of cocky people
(-) guys in bands being assholes, and making the music seem like less than it once was
(-) being looked at as a GROUPIE just because i'm a teenage girl who got sucked into hooking up with a guy in a band i happened to like
(-) people thinking i'm going to shows just to meet boys
(-) trendy kids who never liked the music for the music, but for the look
(-) stupid little girls that can't handle the mosh
(-) getting looked at as "obnoxious" or something like that for wanting to have fun
(-) knowing how everything works
(-) DRAMA. Period.
I've met half the people I talk to at shows BECAUSE of shows. I've become a zombie...stopped paying attention to bands, while just trying to TALK to people in bands, and I have no idea why. It became less about the performance, and more about the idea of "well, I like their CD and I have the power, so I should befriend them." I've become something that...well...I don't know. I just want to chill out.
I've been doing this since I was 8 years old, it's time for me to relax for a little bit. The only band I can go and see without worrying about how I look, who sees me, what people will say if I'm rocking out, is GREEN DAY.
So, until I can be mature enough to try to let it all go...and do it for the music again...I have to stop. Maybe I will just let it be in moderation, rather than cutting it off all together. Maybe if I just go on weekends, if I have nothing else to do, or just for my favoritest of favorite bands, okay. But meh.
I can't just stop talking to these people. I mean, I can try to ween away from them...but I don't know. I had never known most of these friends outside of shows. I've never had much of a social life until they came around. I don't know how to function.
Anywho...there's probably more, but I'm too tired to write, and I have school in the morning. Bah.