a new hope in answer to an old pain.
So far, I'm liking the new job. No time whatsoever to ease in, as they had me out in the field as soon as all my paperwork was finished. I love what I do, and as long as I'm doing the things I'm good at, it's a great feeling.
Personal life lessons: Last week, I'm being raked over the coals for not putting enough effort into my dad. I wanted to cry, and feel sorry for myself, but instead, I decided to put the effort I'd wasted on the unapreciative into him. Yesterday, for the first time since my mother took ill, he called me. Words are inadequate. It's worth what was lost.
Life lesson #2: I don't want love. I don't want words that fall flat in the end. I just want understanding and a friend I can believe in. That is beyond some people and I'm sorry for that. But, I can only judge by what I'm told and what I see and feel. Don't tell me you want it all, and offer only pieces. My curse is to hold others up to what they profess. Some have realized this and adjusted, and even if it is difficult at times, we find a way. Some don't, and leave. And the way shall never be found. I can no longer regret the actions of others.
Personal life lessons: Last week, I'm being raked over the coals for not putting enough effort into my dad. I wanted to cry, and feel sorry for myself, but instead, I decided to put the effort I'd wasted on the unapreciative into him. Yesterday, for the first time since my mother took ill, he called me. Words are inadequate. It's worth what was lost.
Life lesson #2: I don't want love. I don't want words that fall flat in the end. I just want understanding and a friend I can believe in. That is beyond some people and I'm sorry for that. But, I can only judge by what I'm told and what I see and feel. Don't tell me you want it all, and offer only pieces. My curse is to hold others up to what they profess. Some have realized this and adjusted, and even if it is difficult at times, we find a way. Some don't, and leave. And the way shall never be found. I can no longer regret the actions of others.