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i wonder how many people forgot i existed in the time that i was dead. i know you did. oh well i dont blame you because i sort of forgot i existed too.
i didnt go to school on thurday or friday because im a troublemaker and i slashed all the tires on the busses so they stopped running kind of like in jeepers creepers 2 only i didnt kill anyone in the pocess and eat their heads. i didnt have school today either because there was a snow storm last night so i had a five day weekend. i still want more time off school though because what teenager actually wants to go to school?
okay i have a question. whats the matter with me? why doesnt any even care about my opinion anymore? everyone used to come to me with their problems and stuff and they spoke to me and hung out with me and crap. only now i seem to have become invisible and a burden on the worlds shoulders. no one talks to me. only when they want to brag about something that i dont have or that im not.
like this guy dan said that lucy was hott and now thats all she talks about to me. and amara and this guy are sort of kind of going out and thats all she talks about to me. it really kind of hurts me because it makes me sad that they dont actually like me and i know it. i used to be happier when they didnt like me and i was too naive to believe it.
i still kind of like james. he isnt like other guys. he really likes girls for who they are and not what size bra they wear or how skinny or pretty or whatever they are. he listens and he's sweet. we were talking online the other day and he goes,
"your life matters kara. to me." because we were talking about how worthless i feel sometimes. he really knows just what to say.
we were at erins party a while ago and we were alone in her room, and i was just sitting on the floor off to the side wrapped up in a big blanket because i was tired and cold. he was watching me from the bed and i know this because i could feel his eyes on me if that sounds weird enough. then he got off the bed and came and sat on the ground under the covers with me and i had my head on his shoulder and it was quiet and nice and i started to fall asleep but james got up and left me because we heard casey and julie laughing outside the room in the hall because casey had dropped her pizza on the white carpet.
i dunno.
exams are next week which means i really need to study this week which means im going to want to kill myself by wednesday.
please pray to whatever you worship for me that i do well on my exams because i really need all the help i can get right now.
well, american idol is on now... i guess i'll be going now.
until next time, adieux.
i didnt go to school on thurday or friday because im a troublemaker and i slashed all the tires on the busses so they stopped running kind of like in jeepers creepers 2 only i didnt kill anyone in the pocess and eat their heads. i didnt have school today either because there was a snow storm last night so i had a five day weekend. i still want more time off school though because what teenager actually wants to go to school?
okay i have a question. whats the matter with me? why doesnt any even care about my opinion anymore? everyone used to come to me with their problems and stuff and they spoke to me and hung out with me and crap. only now i seem to have become invisible and a burden on the worlds shoulders. no one talks to me. only when they want to brag about something that i dont have or that im not.
like this guy dan said that lucy was hott and now thats all she talks about to me. and amara and this guy are sort of kind of going out and thats all she talks about to me. it really kind of hurts me because it makes me sad that they dont actually like me and i know it. i used to be happier when they didnt like me and i was too naive to believe it.
i still kind of like james. he isnt like other guys. he really likes girls for who they are and not what size bra they wear or how skinny or pretty or whatever they are. he listens and he's sweet. we were talking online the other day and he goes,
"your life matters kara. to me." because we were talking about how worthless i feel sometimes. he really knows just what to say.
we were at erins party a while ago and we were alone in her room, and i was just sitting on the floor off to the side wrapped up in a big blanket because i was tired and cold. he was watching me from the bed and i know this because i could feel his eyes on me if that sounds weird enough. then he got off the bed and came and sat on the ground under the covers with me and i had my head on his shoulder and it was quiet and nice and i started to fall asleep but james got up and left me because we heard casey and julie laughing outside the room in the hall because casey had dropped her pizza on the white carpet.
i dunno.
exams are next week which means i really need to study this week which means im going to want to kill myself by wednesday.
please pray to whatever you worship for me that i do well on my exams because i really need all the help i can get right now.
well, american idol is on now... i guess i'll be going now.
until next time, adieux.