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blurry mind can't focus. feel time slipping by even though my minds eye is open and closing. just not in the right rythm or the right state of being or being in the right state. pulls of something in the middle of my bones towards mystery compass directions. paths of could be's but no should be's yet to be. many you's of who i hope to find minutes to waste with. tangled
thoughts expressed through backwards words back through expressed thoughts (tangled). stuck but nothing is sticking and i want to be anywhere but here though here is where i find myself most or mostly, but not entirely. need air to wiggle its way through my blood and take me with it back up up out over and across and back or maybe not this time. over and out.
responsible with unimportant semblances of what life is supposed to be but what is the real thing and how do i let go of this without losing it all or losing my way?
wait. weight. weigh it out. way out?
dreamt of bumming clove cigarattes from strangers in a city that i love and know so well though i was alone and looking for where i belong.
thoughts expressed through backwards words back through expressed thoughts (tangled). stuck but nothing is sticking and i want to be anywhere but here though here is where i find myself most or mostly, but not entirely. need air to wiggle its way through my blood and take me with it back up up out over and across and back or maybe not this time. over and out.
responsible with unimportant semblances of what life is supposed to be but what is the real thing and how do i let go of this without losing it all or losing my way?
wait. weight. weigh it out. way out?
dreamt of bumming clove cigarattes from strangers in a city that i love and know so well though i was alone and looking for where i belong.