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Mar 01, 2004 23:54

God... It's been a while since I've posted here. I haven't had a lot to say, I guess. That, and from time to time, when I HAVE had something to say, I couldn't make my journal open. Go figure.

I wonder if people are ever very interested just to see me say what I've done this week, or how my day went, or how much sleep I've been getting. They're all the things that every person can talk about, but they're good details nonetheless. The kinds of things that, when you care about another person, mean the world to you. On the other hand, I think I'd find it really obnoxious if someone that I wasn't so fond of found their way to me and proceeded to whine about how tired they were. I'm sure I'd be more than just a little inclined to think that it served them right. I guess I don't expect people that I don't like to say anything MORE interesting than that, though. Not to me, anyway. Maybe to their friends, who I also dislike. I can hear it when they talk, I guess. Then, if I end up caring, I'm not even obligated to respond! None of this really happened, or at least not recently. If it did, it didn't matter enough that I remember. I'm just thinking.

Image is a big problem, these days. People all feel like they have to fall within certain borders, if they want to be in the picture. Everyone fits into the big picture, though. Everyone. Even if they're just a blur of color in some obscure place. Not everyone is satisfied with being a blur, though. Some people want to be what everyone else is looking at. Some people want to be what you would look at if you ever zoomed in on that picture. And some people deserve to be that spot of the picture. Obviously, someone HAS to be. No good picture has a gaping hole in it. Even bad ones don't, usually. I like to think that our big picture isn't all that bad, though. In the long run, maybe. I'm not always too happy with my view of it... But I guess not many people are. That's why it's GOOD to be able to see farther than what your eyes present to you. If you're surrounded by trees, it does you good to see some sand every now and then. Or maybe it doesn't, but it makes enough sense anyway.

Be what you WANT to be. You can't say that you want to be popular and still be yourself. Popularity is defined by what OTHER people want you to be. So be yourself. You can't want to be a good person, or someone that will be remembered, because that all falls onto the discretion of others. You have to want to be yourself, and then you have to let it happen. I've known a good amount of people that would be absolutely wonderful, if they could have ever just stopped hiding what they really were so that people would like them. We can make countless masks to hide behind, but every time we do, we're just giving other people something ELSE to like, and pushing ourselves farther aside. Farther out of the picture. If a person doesn't like you for being yourself, then you shouldn't worry about them. You couldn't depend on them for anything, anyway. Find people that will like you even if you don't listen to all of the popular music, or wear the trendy clothes. Find people that would like you just because of the things that you could say to them. Then let them say things back. Let them be themselves, too. You'll find that people are infinitely more interesting when they're honest about who they really are.
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