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alright. if you think you know someone who is a real idiot..think again..
last night i went to cece's for awhile then we drove to emily's farm house in fucking east amwell (middle of nowhere) and i sat on the couch and stared and played with her dogs and talked to jordan and greg the whole time cos we were all outcasts..it was emily janine cece liz kevin and tom which is weird. theyre nice boys though. i was walking up her steep wooden steps to call my mom and i fell and spilled orange juice shit everywhere..it was more emberassing though..and i have a huge bruise/welt on my ankle. i wasnt even drunk. i didnt get drunk. i went home with jordan and greg at like 1130. of course, you know me, the nights i dont get drunk it's...take 5 ambien night and do retarded crazy things in my room. so my mom came in..i dont really remember anything..but i believe i showed her my bellybutton rings and told her about them and shes NEVER seen them..ive gone so far to hide them from her for like a year now..and i just fucking show them to her. i also like told her about the drugs i do..and drinking..and crazy shit..i dont remember obviously. i woke up this morning and i think i must have still been a little weird cos i told geoff that i have a crush on one of his freinds.
lets discuss this. yea i am immature..but ive had a crush on this guy for months and i have only told one person..harriett..who im sure forgot about it cos and i told her i didnt anymore. when i like someone, i almost always tell people, and they arent interested, and it hurts, and i cant take it anymore. i really like this kid as a friend, and i don't want to ruin it. because i know he isnt interested. he flirts with all my friends..and every single girl...like nobody's business..and doesnt ever with me. thats how i know. but i do like him, a lot. so geoff automatically guessed that it was him, and i said i wasnt saying but i know he knows. and blah. i know this is like 8th grade crap..but ive never been able to keep a secret for so long like this..im a loser.
school tomorrow..i MIGHT decide to die instead.
last night i went to cece's for awhile then we drove to emily's farm house in fucking east amwell (middle of nowhere) and i sat on the couch and stared and played with her dogs and talked to jordan and greg the whole time cos we were all outcasts..it was emily janine cece liz kevin and tom which is weird. theyre nice boys though. i was walking up her steep wooden steps to call my mom and i fell and spilled orange juice shit everywhere..it was more emberassing though..and i have a huge bruise/welt on my ankle. i wasnt even drunk. i didnt get drunk. i went home with jordan and greg at like 1130. of course, you know me, the nights i dont get drunk it's...take 5 ambien night and do retarded crazy things in my room. so my mom came in..i dont really remember anything..but i believe i showed her my bellybutton rings and told her about them and shes NEVER seen them..ive gone so far to hide them from her for like a year now..and i just fucking show them to her. i also like told her about the drugs i do..and drinking..and crazy shit..i dont remember obviously. i woke up this morning and i think i must have still been a little weird cos i told geoff that i have a crush on one of his freinds.
lets discuss this. yea i am immature..but ive had a crush on this guy for months and i have only told one person..harriett..who im sure forgot about it cos and i told her i didnt anymore. when i like someone, i almost always tell people, and they arent interested, and it hurts, and i cant take it anymore. i really like this kid as a friend, and i don't want to ruin it. because i know he isnt interested. he flirts with all my friends..and every single girl...like nobody's business..and doesnt ever with me. thats how i know. but i do like him, a lot. so geoff automatically guessed that it was him, and i said i wasnt saying but i know he knows. and blah. i know this is like 8th grade crap..but ive never been able to keep a secret for so long like this..im a loser.
school tomorrow..i MIGHT decide to die instead.