it really makes me wonder
so. things have been fucking crazy since i've been home. i've been seeing old friends and reigniting old flames (to put it awkwardly). but the one thing that's been really weird but totally awesome is realizing who my true friends are. on the one hand it's sad to realize that some people just don't care about me anymore. they don't call/im/e-mail anything. but then there are some...specificially two lovely ladies who have showed me just how beautiful people can be. they are always willing to listen. give me advice and listen to my stupid rants when some boy has done something dumb. make me laugh. make me feel like someone is always going to be by my side. and the best part of it all? they tell me that i do the same for them. that's what friendship is really for. being there for each other...equally...and being a solid part of someone's life whenever they need you. the amount of maturing i've done in the past two years of college is crazy. i can't imagine who i was two years ago. and i'm glad i'm not her anymore. i'm trying to be less self-involved and understand other people, be more laidback, and loving. i'm in a good place at the moment....despite boys being idiots. :p