From a long, long time ago...
(This entry was private, but now i feel ok about revealing it)
You guys have no idea how close you all really were with that Shancy thing.
I feel like I'm missing an entire half of me.
All that's left is this shattered shell.
And you know what the extra salt on the wound and kick in the crotch is?
The half that left me here, is already whole.
What I'll never have the courage to say:
The ending to Garden State kills me every time.
The part where Zach comes back and says that the ellipses is a bad idea.
I had my opportunity to say how bad the ellipses is.
I blew it off thinking of how great my situation would be here.
I'd be swimming in sea of attractive girls.
But distance makes us wise, and i realize now that i don't want to be swimming in a sea of girls.
I want to be with you.
I think of some of the things i used to fight about with you.
I feel like such a jackass now thinking back to the times where i was jealous of your brother.
How ridiculous is that? He's your fucking brother.
And I remember the time where we fought in Ali's car about whether or not the girl singing was Imogen Heap.
Not only did i ruin our night, but I made myself look like a fool in front of your friend.
To make things worse, i was wrong.
I think of all the times i left your porch with just a peck on the cheek.
And i realize, Oh my god. All of that time, time that used to be so precious.
Gone.
So you know what?
I need another chance.
I need another chance to make something that i KNOW is right work.
Give me that chance.
You guys have no idea how close you all really were with that Shancy thing.
I feel like I'm missing an entire half of me.
All that's left is this shattered shell.
And you know what the extra salt on the wound and kick in the crotch is?
The half that left me here, is already whole.
What I'll never have the courage to say:
The ending to Garden State kills me every time.
The part where Zach comes back and says that the ellipses is a bad idea.
I had my opportunity to say how bad the ellipses is.
I blew it off thinking of how great my situation would be here.
I'd be swimming in sea of attractive girls.
But distance makes us wise, and i realize now that i don't want to be swimming in a sea of girls.
I want to be with you.
I think of some of the things i used to fight about with you.
I feel like such a jackass now thinking back to the times where i was jealous of your brother.
How ridiculous is that? He's your fucking brother.
And I remember the time where we fought in Ali's car about whether or not the girl singing was Imogen Heap.
Not only did i ruin our night, but I made myself look like a fool in front of your friend.
To make things worse, i was wrong.
I think of all the times i left your porch with just a peck on the cheek.
And i realize, Oh my god. All of that time, time that used to be so precious.
Gone.
So you know what?
I need another chance.
I need another chance to make something that i KNOW is right work.
Give me that chance.