I've held it all together but a nite like this is begging 2 pull me apart.

[wasteddan69]

This song right here by 12 Stones reminds me of so many things and I hate it so much! I dont really like the person I am becoming and the things I've lost. I'm becoming an alcoholic, I smoke too many cigarettes, smoke too much pot, I've even started to take valium and shit, it relaxes me and it makes things go by better for me. I mean, shit I have so much fun in school and over the weekends but somethings missing and I don't know what it is. I wish things could be like they were in the summer I had everything I needed, but maybe I need a change from all that, maybe I didnt have everything I needed who knows, I don't know anymore. I lost a couple of great friends, I lost probaly the one person that mattered most to me and I realize I need her more than anything right now, but lifes not fair and you can't always get what you want, it sucks so much! Its so hard to say what I'm think about right now. It may sound like I'm whining and crying about this, but I'm not, its just how I feel and I can't change that.

Lately I've been wandering
Off the narrow path
You’ve given me so many things that I've never had
And all in all I know it's you that always pulls me through
If you reach deep inside you’ll see my heart is true

‘Cause I hate the way I feel tonight
And I know I need you in my life
Yes I hate the way I feel inside
And I promise to make the sacrifice

The world I know is pulling me
More and more each day
I feel like the odd man out as I begin to pray
Spiteful eyes are watching me
With everything I do
In the midst of darkness Lord
My spirit calls for you

(You know sometimes deep inside)
I feel like this

'Cause I hate the way I feel tonight
And I know I need you in my life
Yes I hate the way I feel inside
And I promise to make the sacrifice