This is not love. This is blissful breathing.
The shows went alright.
Friday-
I was worried that not many people would show up because the show on Saturday was going to be better due to more bands. I was right. But, it wasn't a bad show. A perfect Kiss was AMAZING BOTH nights. The only thing that bothered me was all of the bitches that kept coming up to me saying " Heather its your fault no one is here." Thanks guys. This is one of the reasons why I'm taking time off from the booking company.
Also Two bands and brendon stayed the night at my house. They were Class of 98, and The Arrival. They were so neat to hang out with. We all only got about four hours of sleep. The drummer from Class of 98 (Colby) was so awesome. He told the most amazing stories all night.
Saturday-
Well the first part of the show was pretty boring because not many people were there but then cars full of people started to arrive and BAM! Good show. I was really upset because i had to cut T-pots set short. So I'm sorry T-pot. I love you guys and you KNOW it. I really wanted you guys to play longer. :(
After T-pot played i felt really uncomfortable being around Jeff and Bill at the same time. So, i ran off. I walked so far in the rain to think. I went to some apartments then turned around and walked back to the B&G club and sat outside the first building crying. I really didn't want to miss APK so i went back soaked with no shoes on and danced my little heart out. After they played Jeff asked me what was wrong and i took him outside and told him. I ended up breaking it off with him. He got mad at me and left. I walked back to the building and saw Bill. I was crying and I asked him to talk. We went to the right side of the building and I told him what happened.
This was the moment i felt dead.
I started crying the hardest i've ever cried. I was shaking so bad Bill had to hold me up. I thought i was going to puke but there really wasnt anything to puke. Bill told me i needed to go home. I thought about it and i knew i did. It was about 9 and i walked inside all beautiful from crying and found brendon and told him that i had to go that i didn't feel well. He said he would handle everything. ( I love you Brendon) Then i said my goodbyes and left the show that had stressed me out so much.
All in all I know i need to change my life. I can't do this anymore. I have to start thinking of myself. I have to sleep. I have to eat. I need to spend more time on me. I'm sorry who ever i hurt. I'm sorry Jeff. I'm sorry AGB. I really need to work this out.
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Friday-
I was worried that not many people would show up because the show on Saturday was going to be better due to more bands. I was right. But, it wasn't a bad show. A perfect Kiss was AMAZING BOTH nights. The only thing that bothered me was all of the bitches that kept coming up to me saying " Heather its your fault no one is here." Thanks guys. This is one of the reasons why I'm taking time off from the booking company.
Also Two bands and brendon stayed the night at my house. They were Class of 98, and The Arrival. They were so neat to hang out with. We all only got about four hours of sleep. The drummer from Class of 98 (Colby) was so awesome. He told the most amazing stories all night.
Saturday-
Well the first part of the show was pretty boring because not many people were there but then cars full of people started to arrive and BAM! Good show. I was really upset because i had to cut T-pots set short. So I'm sorry T-pot. I love you guys and you KNOW it. I really wanted you guys to play longer. :(
After T-pot played i felt really uncomfortable being around Jeff and Bill at the same time. So, i ran off. I walked so far in the rain to think. I went to some apartments then turned around and walked back to the B&G club and sat outside the first building crying. I really didn't want to miss APK so i went back soaked with no shoes on and danced my little heart out. After they played Jeff asked me what was wrong and i took him outside and told him. I ended up breaking it off with him. He got mad at me and left. I walked back to the building and saw Bill. I was crying and I asked him to talk. We went to the right side of the building and I told him what happened.
This was the moment i felt dead.
I started crying the hardest i've ever cried. I was shaking so bad Bill had to hold me up. I thought i was going to puke but there really wasnt anything to puke. Bill told me i needed to go home. I thought about it and i knew i did. It was about 9 and i walked inside all beautiful from crying and found brendon and told him that i had to go that i didn't feel well. He said he would handle everything. ( I love you Brendon) Then i said my goodbyes and left the show that had stressed me out so much.
All in all I know i need to change my life. I can't do this anymore. I have to start thinking of myself. I have to sleep. I have to eat. I need to spend more time on me. I'm sorry who ever i hurt. I'm sorry Jeff. I'm sorry AGB. I really need to work this out.
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