Lack of life

[wastedafternoon]

I'm not even sure what to write but I have to write something or I'm going to explode inside. I'm really disappointed in the people i hang out with i feel bad saying it but actually i really dont feel anything at all because I'm so mad i cant even think straight. The past week i've shed so many tears that i've tried so hard to hold inside and all over people who don't care about me, People who care about me after they hurt me and see me so upset. Why didn't you think about it when you were doing it? Before you saw my face you didn't care. Before you heard my voice you couldn't give a shit. I swear I should be numb to this feeling now. I've had it so many times that is unreal. I wish i was a stronger person and could take all of the shit given to me but is that even possible? One day i will be because i get it so much. I feel like all of my "friends" are drifting so far away. Maybe its becuase i work too much but i dont know.

Gosh, I'm lame.

Disregard.