May 25, 2004 17:47
Sorry for the lack of update again, lots' of things have been happening and i've been trying to write about them but my computer hasn't been allowing it. Luckily, it seems to be up and running again, so I figured this would be a good time to update. Generally this is what has been happening/ has happened...
- I cut and dyed my hair
- I'm running for president
- I've spent the last couple days mopeing about over a boy
Luckily I've been getting over him and this new emotion of heart break. As much as it hurts, i'm kind of glad it happened because now I know how it feels and I can't feel guilty about liking him anymore. However this isn't very interesting i'm sure and I would much rather like to think about a thought I've been having.
I've been thinking about how cool it would be if we could insert a camera into our eyes and so when we pressed a button like or nose or something, then blinked, we could save or print that very image and every emotion we felt along with it. I thought about this a lot a couple days ago, my mother and I were driving back from Rose's house and we had hit the perfect time for watching the sunset. We drove by the stained cement, dirty gas stations, and tragic homeless shelters which provided us with such a gorgeous contrast with the beautifully painted pink/orange/multicolored sky. But the image wouldn't have been complete without my dad's wonderful slow and soft beautiful music, and the emotions I was feeling. It was an emotion of longing for something I had lost and had just began truly missing, yet there weren't any tears or feelings of depression, it was more like something I had accepted and realized there was nothing I could do. It was odd how refreshing the feeling was. I really wish I could have captured it to look back upon.
Even now the words of my description aren't seeming fit the image and feelings that are still fresh in my memory. I hope they stay fresh a bit more.
That's all for now, hopefully I'll take some good pictures and put them on here soon