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Im in the mood to ramble...
You know what i dont understand? Why,if i start to like a boy,they have to like not only me but my bestfriend too. Or,if i wana hook up with a boy,they wana not only hook up with me but my bestfriend too...and then my bestfriend wants to hook up with them to and i end up hooking up with them first so then she cant cause thats weird and its not even like i wana be with these people i just wana have fun so now i feel slutty and kinda used but not really used cause i mean im using them how they are using me and i dont really see the point in liking a girls bestfriend if your just gona fool around with them anyways,i dont understand any of this. But whatever right?
I dont understand how i can go threw a complete dry spell with no guys then be caught in between four of them. im confused and rarley ever know what i want. but this time its clear but i cant have what i want because its gona get way to messy for my liking,things like this should be easy but this is not. clear sign that it will end horribly. red flag if your please...
I need to staht working more i feel like i took a whole week off so i need to make it up,im working SO much tomorrow which is GOOD but i hate working when i would rather be some where else with the kid of my dreams but whatever.
Getting away from tbury this week was real good,relaxing with no cell phone or internet was awesome. thanks to all of you who called me on my birthday though that was real nice i got all the voice mails and messages when i got home that made me smile,i needed it.
The night b4 my birthday kinda sucked. Obviously called ryan to say happy birthday but he was drunk and rambling so hung up on that conversation rather fast. Called everyone else cause it was also their birthdays (yall know who you are) <3 it was an okay time. but i rememberd last year and i hate HATE how much everything has changed. i wish i could wirte what i want to right now but i cant cause thats real weird,ill write a friends only later.
dont you wish your girlfriend was hot like me though?
I saw an old OLD friend tonight,it made me happy he rememberd my birthday,it weird,the one person i thought could give a shit less about me is the one who actually cares the most. I miss the old crew though. but i still have sheryne!!!
I got so much shit this weekend,i went shopppiinngg like ccrraayyzzaaayy!
i got a shirt thats wicked GA and i love it. i also kinda stalked up on the britney spears new age cloths,if you dont know what that it dont bother trying to figure it out.
Me and Kylie got in a fight,i dont really know why,or what happend...but it was a big fight. them me and britt got in a fight but were fine now. me and john are well...me and john and things have been weird for months now since i found out the truth about some things i wish i never knew. Joey is out of him mind,literally out of his mind,he makes me nervous. but hes cheap with all his freaks and he lies compulsivly...so whatev. by the pool...on the beach...on the streets...dayum...
So,im over it completly 100% OVER IT. stop tellin people im not,stop tellin people i care,cause i dont. i love my life,i have the best life i could ever want. and pee-ees i am ALWAYS right,i NEVER say something that i dont mean,and everything i said to you i mean really REALLY mean. ::laughing in your face::
baby and that means...i gada shake you off...<3
Get drunk.
You know what i dont understand? Why,if i start to like a boy,they have to like not only me but my bestfriend too. Or,if i wana hook up with a boy,they wana not only hook up with me but my bestfriend too...and then my bestfriend wants to hook up with them to and i end up hooking up with them first so then she cant cause thats weird and its not even like i wana be with these people i just wana have fun so now i feel slutty and kinda used but not really used cause i mean im using them how they are using me and i dont really see the point in liking a girls bestfriend if your just gona fool around with them anyways,i dont understand any of this. But whatever right?
I dont understand how i can go threw a complete dry spell with no guys then be caught in between four of them. im confused and rarley ever know what i want. but this time its clear but i cant have what i want because its gona get way to messy for my liking,things like this should be easy but this is not. clear sign that it will end horribly. red flag if your please...
I need to staht working more i feel like i took a whole week off so i need to make it up,im working SO much tomorrow which is GOOD but i hate working when i would rather be some where else with the kid of my dreams but whatever.
Getting away from tbury this week was real good,relaxing with no cell phone or internet was awesome. thanks to all of you who called me on my birthday though that was real nice i got all the voice mails and messages when i got home that made me smile,i needed it.
The night b4 my birthday kinda sucked. Obviously called ryan to say happy birthday but he was drunk and rambling so hung up on that conversation rather fast. Called everyone else cause it was also their birthdays (yall know who you are) <3 it was an okay time. but i rememberd last year and i hate HATE how much everything has changed. i wish i could wirte what i want to right now but i cant cause thats real weird,ill write a friends only later.
dont you wish your girlfriend was hot like me though?
I saw an old OLD friend tonight,it made me happy he rememberd my birthday,it weird,the one person i thought could give a shit less about me is the one who actually cares the most. I miss the old crew though. but i still have sheryne!!!
I got so much shit this weekend,i went shopppiinngg like ccrraayyzzaaayy!
i got a shirt thats wicked GA and i love it. i also kinda stalked up on the britney spears new age cloths,if you dont know what that it dont bother trying to figure it out.
Me and Kylie got in a fight,i dont really know why,or what happend...but it was a big fight. them me and britt got in a fight but were fine now. me and john are well...me and john and things have been weird for months now since i found out the truth about some things i wish i never knew. Joey is out of him mind,literally out of his mind,he makes me nervous. but hes cheap with all his freaks and he lies compulsivly...so whatev. by the pool...on the beach...on the streets...dayum...
So,im over it completly 100% OVER IT. stop tellin people im not,stop tellin people i care,cause i dont. i love my life,i have the best life i could ever want. and pee-ees i am ALWAYS right,i NEVER say something that i dont mean,and everything i said to you i mean really REALLY mean. ::laughing in your face::
baby and that means...i gada shake you off...<3
Get drunk.