feeling odd. emotions all over
so i was going to go to the vollyball game in nicollet with turbo, kral, and josh and they were going to call me and i was going to meet them in courtland but what do u know!! they dont call me.
i was laying out side tonight in the grass thinking, and watching the stars and ialways see the lights in the sky that look like stars but they are moveing, and im not just seeing things. what are they? are they satalites, rockets, or ufo's?
i saw a shooting star. it was wierd becasue i was saying the i wish i may i wish i might wish upon the first star i see tonight saying, and in the middle of it i saw the shooting star. so i made my wish. and if it comes true i will tell u. if i tell u now it wont come true, but if i tell it after it comes true does it come untrue and reverse everything?? just my brain thinking too much again.
i seem to get stressed out a lot easier lately. i got really over stressed driveing to the cities last saturday, and i always get stressed in math class but i really got stressed out today and just over frustrated becasue i dont remember anything and mr o is a fuck faced ass hole who doesnt ever feel like teaching. and then tonight at the least likely time, i was doing dishes and i just felt so stressed. i have no idea why. its wierd. o well
so school has started and Allie is still being a wierd little person. i (at least i think) act normal around her and act like everything is cool and i talk to her now and then and get this she actually responds now and then, but she still acts as though she cant bear talking with me becasue it hurts too much. and if that is the case than how the hell is she seeing this other guy. sure i really miss her and i would love to try things again but she keeps makeing me realise how thin of a chance we have at doing that. but on the brighter hand, my locker is by katie bernake, and we talk some. she is cool and hot. i would love to start something up with her even if it doesnt last past high school. but she is in the cult and those girls have thier own way of doing things, so u never know whats going on.
well i am going to go get to bed. i hope i can get on to write again soon.
Drewster the Rooster
ps: is anyone elses messenger not working tonight or is it just mine?
i was laying out side tonight in the grass thinking, and watching the stars and ialways see the lights in the sky that look like stars but they are moveing, and im not just seeing things. what are they? are they satalites, rockets, or ufo's?
i saw a shooting star. it was wierd becasue i was saying the i wish i may i wish i might wish upon the first star i see tonight saying, and in the middle of it i saw the shooting star. so i made my wish. and if it comes true i will tell u. if i tell u now it wont come true, but if i tell it after it comes true does it come untrue and reverse everything?? just my brain thinking too much again.
i seem to get stressed out a lot easier lately. i got really over stressed driveing to the cities last saturday, and i always get stressed in math class but i really got stressed out today and just over frustrated becasue i dont remember anything and mr o is a fuck faced ass hole who doesnt ever feel like teaching. and then tonight at the least likely time, i was doing dishes and i just felt so stressed. i have no idea why. its wierd. o well
so school has started and Allie is still being a wierd little person. i (at least i think) act normal around her and act like everything is cool and i talk to her now and then and get this she actually responds now and then, but she still acts as though she cant bear talking with me becasue it hurts too much. and if that is the case than how the hell is she seeing this other guy. sure i really miss her and i would love to try things again but she keeps makeing me realise how thin of a chance we have at doing that. but on the brighter hand, my locker is by katie bernake, and we talk some. she is cool and hot. i would love to start something up with her even if it doesnt last past high school. but she is in the cult and those girls have thier own way of doing things, so u never know whats going on.
well i am going to go get to bed. i hope i can get on to write again soon.
Drewster the Rooster
ps: is anyone elses messenger not working tonight or is it just mine?