...................I'm sorry
I feel really shitty right now. About a month ago I got depressed to the point I was going to hang myself outside. The only person that talked to me at the time, kept me from killing myself. Now, she is the one who is depressed, and the best thing that I can do for her is to sit and wait and leave her alone. I have no problem with that, if I didn't feel like it was somehow my fault. I wish I knew something to say that would make things better, or at least be able to say anything. I can't help but sit and wonder and worry. Was she saying "I don't want to talk", and really meaning "I wish I had someone to talk to"? I doubt it but if something happens, I'm going to regret it for the rest of what will end up being my short life. I can't even ever return favors when my friends need me to. Maybe I'm overreacting and she'll be happy that I decided to let her listen to music and leave her alone. I hope she feels better soon, I know how terrible it can be when everyone is against you and the only person thats willing to be on your side, yo feel like you've failed him/her.