Just Believe Me....
I feel...
My life sucks...everything was going all good and just about perfect...but now everything is ALL just going downhill...go figure that's what always happens with me...it's just I thought this would be DIFFERENT. I mean what do you do when you want something to work and you think it will...but he doesn;t and wants to give up....do you give up too or do you just keep trying? I'm stubborn so guess what I'm going to keep trying until there is nothing worth trying for and hopefully that won't happen...hopefully. So now I sit here thinking..why doesn't helisten when I try telling him how I feel...why does he deney it...why? But it's just me..it's ALWAYS me...I'm always screwing up and saying things that I shouldn't be saying or doing things I shouldn't be doing...I mean more then anything I want Justin to trust me, but since I SCREWED up and made a mistake with some other guy it seems like he just can never trust me anymore. All I want is him to trust me and not hold what I did int he past against me I mean I know it was worng...but PLEASE everyone makes atleast ONE mistake in there life...and it's not like I would EVER do anything to hurt him....if only he believes me when I say that...b/c I really mean that. Well I guess it is kind of late...and I just WAY too much on my mind and I'm just SO stressed and frustrated and I just wish EVERYTHING was BETTER...but I guess I'm off to bed...
My life sucks...everything was going all good and just about perfect...but now everything is ALL just going downhill...go figure that's what always happens with me...it's just I thought this would be DIFFERENT. I mean what do you do when you want something to work and you think it will...but he doesn;t and wants to give up....do you give up too or do you just keep trying? I'm stubborn so guess what I'm going to keep trying until there is nothing worth trying for and hopefully that won't happen...hopefully. So now I sit here thinking..why doesn't helisten when I try telling him how I feel...why does he deney it...why? But it's just me..it's ALWAYS me...I'm always screwing up and saying things that I shouldn't be saying or doing things I shouldn't be doing...I mean more then anything I want Justin to trust me, but since I SCREWED up and made a mistake with some other guy it seems like he just can never trust me anymore. All I want is him to trust me and not hold what I did int he past against me I mean I know it was worng...but PLEASE everyone makes atleast ONE mistake in there life...and it's not like I would EVER do anything to hurt him....if only he believes me when I say that...b/c I really mean that. Well I guess it is kind of late...and I just WAY too much on my mind and I'm just SO stressed and frustrated and I just wish EVERYTHING was BETTER...but I guess I'm off to bed...