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Wow my mom was insane this morning. I just so happen to be up around 7:00am this morning and I went out to the kitchen to say good morning. She started telling me to walk the dog. I said I’d rather get a little sleep in first. Out of the blue she freaked out yelling at me in a weird way that seemed very angry and stressed out. Maybe it is because she has a long day of work ahead and I have nothing. So I recanted and went to my room to get dress to walk Biscuit and she kept on yelling about how I should move out because I’m selfish. I just asked for an hour of sleep, because if I wasn’t up and about then Biscuit would have to “wait” (he was asleep) like an hour longer till I woke up. Anyway she went on and on asking me strange questions like “WHAT IF BISCUIT PEE-ED ON THE FLOOR THROUGH TO THE OTHER APARTMENT, WHAT THEN?” I didn’t know how to respond to that, so I kept quiet, and she thought I was insulating that she is ignorant. Eh whatever. . .
So anyways I had a very BAD texting with Joe two days ago. So I won’t be hearing from him again, or at least I HOPE not. I think I interpreted grudgey guy with long hair as being interesting. One thing I HATE is that chauvinistic, DRY sexuality, chip on their shoulders, baggage carrying men, I’ve only met a few (meaning two), but those ones are the WORST. Where are they ARTSY, MUSICAL, “passionate”, sexual, and INTERESTING ones , like they doesn’t say OK to everything and tells me I should just ask him better questions. Unless I ask him a question he wouldn’t talk at all I mean that’s NOT normal. Like George, he actually talks back, but whatever maybe that’s because we have no connection at all. How could I be so BLINDED by my desperation for a boyfriend?
Ok the complaining is over. I complained about MC, my mom, Joe, even myself. There I am done I hope. I think I am becoming less emotional. I mean complain isn’t emotional. Like when my mom was mad I me I didn’t care, I didn’t feel anything. Not anger, just nothing, I stated my view in a calm cold way, and I guess that’s why she got mad. Cold to her equals sarcastic and rude. But I didn’t even care enough to be sarcastic. I mean I feel happiness and when I’m having fun, and depression, but it’s more when it comes to me and not to something or someone else. I like that.
So anyways I had a very BAD texting with Joe two days ago. So I won’t be hearing from him again, or at least I HOPE not. I think I interpreted grudgey guy with long hair as being interesting. One thing I HATE is that chauvinistic, DRY sexuality, chip on their shoulders, baggage carrying men, I’ve only met a few (meaning two), but those ones are the WORST. Where are they ARTSY, MUSICAL, “passionate”, sexual, and INTERESTING ones , like they doesn’t say OK to everything and tells me I should just ask him better questions. Unless I ask him a question he wouldn’t talk at all I mean that’s NOT normal. Like George, he actually talks back, but whatever maybe that’s because we have no connection at all. How could I be so BLINDED by my desperation for a boyfriend?
Ok the complaining is over. I complained about MC, my mom, Joe, even myself. There I am done I hope. I think I am becoming less emotional. I mean complain isn’t emotional. Like when my mom was mad I me I didn’t care, I didn’t feel anything. Not anger, just nothing, I stated my view in a calm cold way, and I guess that’s why she got mad. Cold to her equals sarcastic and rude. But I didn’t even care enough to be sarcastic. I mean I feel happiness and when I’m having fun, and depression, but it’s more when it comes to me and not to something or someone else. I like that.