:/
I need to vent somewhere...since I don't really have anyone to vent too.
I am soo tired of my fucking life, I'm tired of never being happy and feeling trapped and stuck all the time. I'm tired of feeling confused about my relationship and my friendships.
I hate people I truly and honestly do... I don't had many friends because of this reason. The people that I were the closest too, barely exist in my life anymore. My "best" friends haven't been the best at doing anything besides letting me down. Why am I soo forgettable ? Why can't for once someone else try and hold the relationship I have with them together?
I'm writing this because yet again, Brandon has fail to come through..3 years of getting push in the background because of this disease of a person called David. Things were great when he was jail, I got to see Brandon at a lot. I watched him grow become strong and independent. Now ever since December 15th, it seems like that has been all erased. I haven't seen Brandon since a few days before the said date..where the last time I was told is he wasn't going to go see him and he wanted nothing to do with him. I've been promised over and over again just to hang out and each and every time I get canceled on. I really fucking sucks, because he is like the only person I have besides he is my escape from Jenn world.
Jenn world? I am constantly surround by all things Jenn, her family, her friends, her choices, her life. I don't even know what the fuck it is to be me anymore. If I just wanted to escape to Dover, I have to bring Jenn cause it's her brother's car I'm using.
I just can't fucking take it anymore...I'm totally and honestly fucking miserable.
I am soo tired of my fucking life, I'm tired of never being happy and feeling trapped and stuck all the time. I'm tired of feeling confused about my relationship and my friendships.
I hate people I truly and honestly do... I don't had many friends because of this reason. The people that I were the closest too, barely exist in my life anymore. My "best" friends haven't been the best at doing anything besides letting me down. Why am I soo forgettable ? Why can't for once someone else try and hold the relationship I have with them together?
I'm writing this because yet again, Brandon has fail to come through..3 years of getting push in the background because of this disease of a person called David. Things were great when he was jail, I got to see Brandon at a lot. I watched him grow become strong and independent. Now ever since December 15th, it seems like that has been all erased. I haven't seen Brandon since a few days before the said date..where the last time I was told is he wasn't going to go see him and he wanted nothing to do with him. I've been promised over and over again just to hang out and each and every time I get canceled on. I really fucking sucks, because he is like the only person I have besides he is my escape from Jenn world.
Jenn world? I am constantly surround by all things Jenn, her family, her friends, her choices, her life. I don't even know what the fuck it is to be me anymore. If I just wanted to escape to Dover, I have to bring Jenn cause it's her brother's car I'm using.
I just can't fucking take it anymore...I'm totally and honestly fucking miserable.