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pretty sure im ready to flip my shit right now. i hate him for making me look so stupid. i hate myself for trusting people. i hate the other him for turning me into one of those people who cant trust anyone. i just dont get WHY. why, what did i do? why does this always happen to me? things might be easier if one of these douchebags just had the balls to come out and tell me what is so horrible about me that makes this happen EVERY time. i knew that weekend was a mistake, i knew it. and im so pathetic that i would go if he called.